翻译: Jess1R 扭头 薛小备 肉肉
校对: 阿瞢
后期: 小萌
压制: 英俊君
电波字幕组
诚心诚译
我相信人们对悲伤的故事 I believe we have a choice
有着不同的叙述方式 in this world about how to tell sad stories.
有人粉饰之 On the one hand, you can sugarcoat it.
就像我们在电影和爱情小说中常见的情节一样 The way they do in movies and romance novels...
可人儿从错误中吸取珍贵的教训 where beautiful people learn beautiful lessons...
事情从不会糟糕到 where nothing is too messed up that can't be fixed...
连道歉和一首Peter Gabriel的歌都于事无补的地步 with an apology and a Peter Gabriel song.
Peter Gabriel 英国音乐家 曾是前卫摇滚乐队Genesis的主唱
我跟接下来这位女孩儿一样喜欢这样的叙述方式 I like that version as much as the next girl does,
相信我 believe me.
只不过这与现实相去甚远 It's just not the truth.
这才是残酷的现实 This is the truth.
抱歉 Sorry.
星运
里的
错
在我十七岁的那个残冬 Late in the winter of my seventeenth year...
我妈妈认为我很抑郁 my mother decided that I was depressed.
她吃得很少 几乎从不出门 She just eats like a bird, she barely leaves the house.
我没有抑郁 妈妈 I am not depressed, Mom.
她一直翻来覆去地读同一本书 She's reading the same book over and over.
那就是抑郁的症状 She's depressed.
我没有抑郁 I'm not depressed.
很多医学小册子和网站 The booklets and the websites always list depression as
都把抑郁列为癌症的其中一个副作用 a side effect of cancer.
抑郁并不是癌症的副作用 Depression's not a side effect of cancer.
垂死之人都会如此 It's a side effect of dying.
我就是其中之一 Which is what was happening to me.
<无尽痛楚>
疼痛需要被感知
我会给你改用舍曲林 I may switch you to Zoloft.
舍曲林和依地普仑都是抗抑郁药
或者依地普仑 Or Lexapro.
频率从每天吃一次增加到两次 And twice a day instead of once.
- 别停啊 - 嗯 - Why stop there? - Hmm?
真的 开的药越多越好 Really, just keep them coming.
把我当成患癌孩子里的Keith Richards好了 I'm like the Keith Richards of cancer kids.
Keith Richards 滚石乐队的主音吉他手 痴迷毒品和酒精
你有没有去过我推荐给你的那个互助小组 Have you been going to that support group I suggested?
嗯 那不适合我 Yeah, it's not my thing.
互助小组好处可多了 Support groups can be a great way
它能让你认识跟你一样的 for you to connect with people who are...
跟我一样的 什么 Who are... What?
正在经历跟你一样旅途的人 on the same journey.
"旅途" 别逗了 "Journey"? Really?
试试看嘛 Give it a chance.
这可能会让你深有感触的 Who knows, you might even find it enlightening.
好吧 All right.
你们准备好了吗 Are you guys ready?
我们今天 We are gathered here today
在耶稣之心这儿共聚一堂 literally in the heart of Jesus.
上帝与我们同在 We're here with J.C.
谁想跟我们分享一下自己的故事 Who wants to share their story with the group?
我叫Angel I'm Angel.
我患有急性髓细胞样白血病 I have acute myeloid leukemia.
Sid 急性成淋巴细胞性白血病 Sid. Acute lymphoblastic leukemia.
嗨 我叫PJ 我患有成神经细胞瘤 Hi, I'm PJ. Um, I have neuroblastoma.
我叫Patrick I'm Patrick.
睾丸癌 Testicular.
Patrick睾丸癌血淋淋的细节就由我来讲吧 I'll spare you the gory details of Patrick's ball cancer.
简单来说 他们在他的蛋蛋里发现了肿瘤 Basically, they found it in his nuts...
于是他们把他那儿大部分都切除了 他本来都快死了 但他挺了过来 they cut most of it out, and he almost died, but he didn't die.
然后现在他就成了这样 离了婚 没了朋友 So now, here he is, divorced, friendless...
寸步不离爹妈家的沙发 living on his parents' couch...
时不时地来耶稣之心讲讲他扣人心弦的癌症故事 exploiting his cancer-tastic past in the heart of Jesus.
就是这样 Literally.
他想让我们知道 总有一天 如果足够幸运 To show us that one day, if we're lucky...
我们能过上跟他一样好的生活 we could be just like him.
轮到谁了 Who's next?
Hazel Hazel?
我叫Hazel I'm Hazel.
刚开始是甲状腺的问题 Uh, thyroid, originally...
但现在他们又在我的肺部 but now with quite the impressive
发现了挺大一块卫星菌落 satellite colony in my lungs.
那你现在感觉如何 And how are you doing?
你是说除了癌症晚期这事儿吗 Uh, you mean besides the terminal cancer?
还不错 我猜 All right, I guess.
我们都支持你 Hazel We're here for you, Hazel.
我来再弹一曲吧 Why don't I play another song?
*耶稣是我们的朋友* *Christ is our friend*
*他会陪我们到永久* *And he'll be there till the end*
*耶稣是我们的朋友* *Christ is our friend*
*他会陪我们到永久* *And he'll be there till the end*
*耶稣* *Christ*
嘿 亲爱的 Hey, sweet pea.
是不是很棒呀 So... was it awesome?
对啊 妈妈 棒极了 "Yeah, Mom, it was awesome!"
我的生活大抵如此 And that was my life.
看真人秀 Reality shows.
看医生 Doctor's appointments.
我要吃八种处方药 每天三次 Eight prescription drugs, three times a day.
但比这些还要糟心一百倍的是 But worst, worst, worst of all...
互助小组 Support group.
- 你们不能强迫我 - 我们当然能 - You cannot make me. - Of course we can.
我们是你的爸爸妈妈 We're your parents.
别闹了 我们不是说好了吗 Come on, we've been through this.
你得去 You need to go.
你得多交几个朋友 十几岁的孩子都这样 You need to make friends, and be a teenager.
妈 如果你把我当平常的十几岁孩子看 Mom, if you want me to be a teenager,
就别送我去互助小组 you don't send me to support group.
你应该帮我弄个假证件 这样我就能去酒吧 You gotta get me a fake ID so that I can go to clubs...
喝鸡尾酒 注射大麻了 and drink gimlets and take pot.
大麻不用注射 Uh, you don't "Take" Pot.
如果我有假证件 我就能知道这些事了呀 Well, that is the kind of thing I would know with a fake ID.
只管上车吧 Can you just get in the car, please?
我就这么去了 And so I went.
这并不是因为我想去 也不是因为我认为它对我有帮助 Not because I wanted to, or because I thought it would help me...
我去那儿的原因 跟我这些天来所做每一件事的原因一样 but for the same reason I did anything these days.
为了让我的父母舒心 To make my parents happy.
我真不明白你为什么不让我自己开车过来 I really don't understand why I can't just drive myself.
你来了也没事做 It's not like you're gonna do anything.
只能又坐在这儿干等 You're just gonna sit here and wait again.
我才不在这儿干等呢 Of course I'm not.
我还有事要做 得开车去办几件事 No, I've got stuff to do. I'm gonna do errands.
好吧 Yeah.
我爱你 I love you.
我也爱你 I love you, too.
好好玩 Have fun.
有什么事比一个人死于癌症更糟呢 The only thing worse than biting it from cancer...
那就是看着自己的孩子死于癌症 is having a kid bite it from cancer.
嘿 Hey!
多交几个朋友 Make some friends.
哦 抱歉 Oh, sorry.
- 我走楼梯 - 没事儿 - I'll take the stairs. - No problem.
谢谢 Thank you.
抱歉 Sorry.
是我的错 My bad.
对不起 I'm sorry.
哦 老天 Oh, my God.
谁想第一个发言 So, who would like to start?
有人想第一个发言吗 谁想为我们开个好头 Does anyone want to start? Who wants to kick it off?
说吧 Go ahead.
我叫Beth 我患有梭形细胞肉瘤 I'm Beth. I have spindle cell sarcoma.
我这周过得还不错 It's been an okay week.
Isaac 我知道你现在遇到了一些困难 Isaac, I know that you're facing some challenges right now.
想跟我们的组员分享分享吗 Do you want to share with the group?
或者让你的朋友说几句话 Or maybe your friend, here?
没事 我来说吧 No, I'll share.
嘿 大家好 Hey, guys. Uh...
我叫Issac Hi, I'm Isaac.
我患有眼癌 I have retinoblastoma.
我的一只眼睛以前动过手术 We had surgery on one eye when I was younger...
现在我这边眼睛是玻璃假眼 so this is a glass eye.
很快我要再去医院接受手术 And then I'm going in to the hospital to have another surgery...
取出我另一个眼球 to take out the other eye.
也就是说 做完这个手术 我就完全看不见了 So, after that surgery, I'm just gonna be totally blind.
但我很幸运 因为我有一个 But I'm lucky, because I have this beautiful,
漂亮又火辣的女友 smoking hot girlfriend...
她比我强太多了 她叫Monica who's way out of my league. Monica.
而且我还有像Augustus Waters这么棒的朋友 And I have great friends like Augustus Waters
经常帮助我 to help me out.
我说完了 谢谢 So, that's what's up. Thanks.
我们都支持你 Isaac We're here for you, Isaac.
谢谢你们 Thank you.
到你了 Gus Your turn, Gus.
好 Yeah, sure.
我叫Augustus Waters Um, I'm Augustus Waters.
18岁了 I'm 18 years old
我在一年半前患上了成骨肉瘤 and I had a touch of osteosarcoma about a year-and-a-half ago.
所以只好把我这段小宝贝截掉 So, I've lost this baby as a result.
现在我有了条机械腿 简直棒极了 And, uh, now I'm part cyborg, which is awesome.
但其实我今天来这儿只是单纯应Isaac的请求罢了 But, really, I'm just here at Isaac's request.
你感觉怎么样 Gus And how are you feeling, Gus?
好极了 I'm grand, yeah.
我现在正坐在过山车上 一直上行 我的朋友 I'm on a roller coaster that only goes up, my friend.
你想在这儿说说你的恐惧吗 Maybe you'd like to share your fears with the group?
我的恐惧 My fears?
被人遗忘 Oblivion.
被人遗忘 Oblivion?
是的 Yeah.
我期待我的人生卓尔不凡 You see, I intend to live an extraordinary life.
被人铭记 To be remembered.
所以如果要说我有什么好恐惧的 So, I'd say if I have any fears,
就是恐惧自己无法实现这个理想了 it would be to not do that.
小组里有人想对此发表自己的看法吗 Would anyone else in the group like to speak to that?
Hazel Hazel?
出乎意料啊 Unexpected.
我只想说 你要知道 I just want to say that you know there's gonna
我们所有人总有灭亡的一天 come a time when all of us are dead.
人类不过是宇宙历史长河中的匆匆过客 There was a time before humans
随时有可能走向灭亡 and there's gonna be a time after.
这一天也许就是明天 也许一百万年后才会到来 It could be tomorrow, it could be a million years from now.
当它来临时 所有人都会灰飞烟灭 And when it does, there will be no one left...
没有人会记得埃及艳后 拳王阿里 或者莫扎特 to remember Cleopatra or Muhammad Ali or Mozart...
更不用说我们这些人了 let alone any of us.
被人遗忘是不可避免的 Oblivion's inevitable.
如果这让你感到恐惧 那我建议你无视它吧 And if that scares you, then I suggest you ignore it.
因为其他人都是这么做的 God knows it's what everyone else does.
嗯 这建议真不错 Well, that's some good advice.
我很喜欢这样 能听到每个人的心声真的很好 And I like all this because it's really nice to hear everybody...
- 谢谢你 - 嗯 - Thank you. - Mmm-hmm.
- 永远 - 永远 - Always. - Always.
"其实" "Literally."
我还以为这是个教堂地下室来着 I thought we were in a church basement...
但显然我们其实身处耶稣之心 but apparently we were literally in the heart of Jesus.
没错 Oh, yeah.
你叫什么名字 What's your name?
Hazel Hazel.
不 我问的是全名 No, what's your full name?
Hazel Grace Lancaster Hazel Grace Lancaster.
怎么了 What?
我什么也没说呀 I didn't say anything.
你为什么那样看着我 Why are you looking at me like that?
因为你好看 Because you're beautiful.
哦 老天 Oh, my God.
我喜欢盯着好看的人看 I enjoy looking at beautiful people.
我刚刚想了想 See, I decided a while back...
我何必要拒绝活着给我带来的快乐呢 not to deny myself the simpler pleasures of existence.
尤其是当你巧妙地提出 Particularly, as you so astutely pointed out,
人的一生转瞬即逝 这一点之后 we're all gonna die pretty soon.
好吧 这很好 不过我并不好看 Okay, well, that's great. But I am not beautiful.
嘿 Gus Hey, Gus.
嗨 Lisa Hi, Lisa.
我喜欢让你先说 I like it when you say it first.
好吧 Okay.
永远 Always.
这"永远"是几个意思 What is with the "Always"?
"永远"是他俩自己的默契 "Always" Is, like, their thing.
"他们会永远爱对方" 之类的意思 They'll "Always" Love each other, and whatnot.
他们今年估计给对方 They probably texted "Always"
发短信说过1400万次永远了 To each other 14 million times this year.
他肯定会伤到她的胸的 He's got to be hurting her boob.
我们去看电影吧 Let's go watch a movie.
- 什么 - 嗯 - What? - Hmm?
啊 Huh?
嗯 Um...
我这周后面几天有空 我们可以 I'm free later this week, we could...
不 我说现在去 No, I mean now.
你搞不好是个斧头杀人狂呢 You could be an axe murderer.
这总是说不准的 There's always that possibility.
来嘛 Hazel Grace 碰碰运气 Come on, Hazel Grace. Take a risk.
我不 I don't...
你不是吧 Really?
这让我恶心 That is disgusting.
什么 What?
怎么了 你觉得自己这样很酷吗 What, do you think that that's cool or something?
你刚把这一切都毁了 You just ruined this whole thing.
- 这一切 - 对 这一切 - The whole thing? - Yes, this whole thing!
哦 天 Oh, man.
呃 你刚才的表现也真不错呢 Ugh. And you were doing really well, too.
老天 人总是有弱点 对不 God! There's always a hamartia, isn't there?
你的弱点就是 虽然你患了该死的癌症 And yours is even though you had freaking cancer...
但你却还是乐此不疲地花钱 you're willing to give money to a corporation...
让自己再成为另一种癌症的牺牲品 for the chance to acquire even more cancer?
我告诉你吧 无法呼吸的感觉逊爆了 Let me just tell you that not being able to breathe sucks!
逊到家了 It totally sucks.
"弱点" "Hamartia"?
意思是致命的缺点 It's a fatal flaw.
哦 致命的 Ah, a fatal...
Hazel Grace Hazel Grace,
除非把它点上 否则它们是不会对你造成伤害的 they don't actually hurt you unless you light them.
嗯 Hmm?
我从没点过烟 I've never lit one.
这是一种隐喻 懂吗 It's a metaphor, see?
你把这能取你性命的小东西 You put the thing that
放到牙间 does the killing right between your teeth...
却不赋予它力量 but you never give it the power to kill you.
这就是隐喻 A metaphor.
嘿 亲爱的 回家看<超级模特>的时间吗 Hey, sweetheart. Is it Top Model time?
不 嗯 No. Uh...
我跟Augustus Waters有约了 I've made plans with Augustus Waters.
哇哦 Whoa!
哦 老天 Oh, my God.
哦 Ooh!
我的驾照考了几次才通过 Yeah, I failed my test a couple times.
不是吧 You don't say.
真的 我第四次考试时 Actually, the fourth time I took the test,
状况就跟现在差不多 it was going about how this is going.
结束的时候 And when it was over...
我的教练看着我 对我说 the instructor looks over at me, and she says...
"你的车技虽然一般 但也还算不上马路杀手" "Your driving, while unpleasant, is not technically unsafe."
看在你得了癌症的份上 Cancer perk.
一定是这样 Total cancer perk.
跟我说说你吧 So, tell me about you.
我13岁时被诊断出了癌症 Um, I was 13 when they found it.
情况已经糟得不能再糟了 Pretty much worst-case scenario.
甲状腺 癌症第四阶段 Thyroid, stage four.
癌症第四阶段 相当于癌症晚期
他们能做的很少 Not much they could do.
但当然 他们没有放弃 Which didn't stop them, of course.
手术 Surgery.
放疗 Radiation.
化疗 Chemo.
然后是更多的放疗 More radiation.
这些方法刚开始都挺有成效 All of which worked for a while.
但一段时间后就不行了 But, then stopped working.
后来有一天 我的肺部开始积水 And then one day, my lungs started filling up with water.
护士 我们这里需要护士 Nurse! We need a nurse right now!
我无法呼吸 I couldn't breathe.
当时的局面没人能控制得了 No one could get it under control.
你可以选择放弃 亲爱的 You can let go, sweetie.
别害怕 Don't be afraid.
本来那就应该是最终结局了 That should have been the end.
哦 老天 Oh, my God.
但后来奇怪的事情发生了 But then something strange happened.
抗生素起了作用 The antibiotics kicked in.
我肺部的积水被抽了出来 They drained the fluid from my lungs.
元气也恢复了些 I got some strength back.
再后来 我发现自己被当成了某个医学实验的试验品 Next thing I know, I found myself in an experimental trial.
就在那个以实验无效著称的 You know, the ones that are famous
癌症康复中心 in the Republic of Cancervania for not working.
这个实验的代号是Phalanxifor It's called Phalanxifor.
70%的患者都对它毫无反应 It didn't work in over 70% of the patients...
但它在我的身上有了成效 but for some reason it's been working for me.
所以 他们把它称为"奇迹" So, they called it "The Miracle."
当然 我的肺现在还是一塌糊涂 Of course, my lungs still suck at being lungs...
理论上说 这种情况还会 but, theoretically, they could continue to suck like this...
持续一段时间 for, I don't know, a while maybe.
那你现在有上学吗 So, are you back in school?
我拿到了高中学历证书 现在在社区大学上课 I got my GED, so I'm taking classes at MCC.
哇哦 大学生嘞 Whoa! A college girl!
怪不得你这么能说会道 Well, that explains the aura of sophistication.
哦 当心 Oh! Careful!
糟糕 Oops.
欢迎光临我的寒舍 Welcome to my humble abode.
我父母把这些称为"励志标语" Uh, my folks call them "Encouragements."
不经历风雨
怎能见彩虹
有你在真好
什么也别问 Don't ask.
嗨 大家伙儿 Hi, guys!
- 嘿 - Augustus 嗨 - Hey! - Augustus, hi.
新朋友吗 New friend?
对 这位是Hazel Grace Yeah. This is Hazel Grace.
嘿 叫我Hazel就好 Hey. Oh, it's just "Hazel."
你怎么样 "Hazel就好" How's it going, "Just Hazel"?
嗨 Hazel 你好吗 Hi, Hazel, how are you?
我们要下楼去了 拜拜 Yeah, we're going downstairs. Bye.
- 很高兴见到你们 - 我们也很高兴见到你 - Nice to meet you guys. - Nice to meet you, too.
就是这儿了 This is it.
Augusto的世界 Augusto World.
这是我的房间 This is my room.
哇 Wow.
你的收藏可真多 It's an impressive collection.
嗯 我以前打篮球的 Yeah, I used to play.
我能坐下吗 Do you mind if I sit down?
当然 别拘束 Yeah. Make yourself at home.
我家就是你家 Mi casa es tu casa.
抱歉 刚刚下楼 Sorry, the, um, stairs...
还站了这么久 and the standing...
嗯 我懂的 Yeah, I understand.
说真的 你还好吗 Seriously, are you okay?
好 好 Yeah, yeah.
那就好 跟我讲讲你的故事吧 All right. What's your story?
我已经讲过了 I already told you.
我13岁时被诊断出 I was diagnosed when I was 13...
不不不 不是你的抗癌故事 是你自己的故事 No, no, no. Not your cancer story, your real story.
你的兴趣爱好 Your interests, your hobbies,
你的理想 你的恋物癖什么的 your passions, your weird fetishes.
"恋物癖" "Weird fetishes"?
想想嘛 比如说你脑中第一个闪过的念头 Think of something. The first thing that pops in your head.
你深爱的东西 Something you love.
<无尽痛楚> An Imperial Affliction.
好 那是什么 Okay. What's that?
是本小说 It's a novel.
是我最爱的小说 It's my favorite novel.
等等 里面有讲僵尸吗 Wait, does it have zombies in it?
僵尸 没有 Zombies? No!
冲锋队员呢 Stormtroopers?
没有 不是那种类型的书 No, it's not that kind of a book.
好吧 那它讲了些什么 Okay, what's it about?
嗯 癌症 Uh, cancer.
是一本讲癌症的书 It's about cancer?
不过不是你想的那样 相信我 它棒极了 But not like that. Trust me, it's amazing.
这本书的作者名叫Peter Van Houten The author, his name is Peter Van Houten.
他是我人生中所知道的唯一一个 He's the only person I've ever come across in my life...
既对垂死的感受了如指掌 who, A, understands what it's like to be dying...
又尚未过世的人 but, B, hasn't actually died.
好吧 Okay.
我会去读你这本与僵尸和冲锋队员毫无干系 I will read this horrible book with this very boring title...
而且书名还这么无聊的破书的 that does not include zombies or Stormtroopers.
作为交换 And in exchange...
你得读我这本书 you will read this.
这本书超级扣人心弦 This haunting,
根据我最爱的电子游戏改编而成的 yet brilliant novelization of my favorite video game.
<反叛乱> "Counterinsurgence."
嘿 别笑 这特别好看 Yeah, don't laugh. It's awesome.
是关于荣誉 牺牲 勇气和英雄主义的 It's about honor, and sacrifice, and bravery, and heroism.
它告诉你要坦然面对命运 It's about embracing your destiny,
并留下你存在过的证据 and leaving a mark on the world.
谢谢你 Well, thank you.
等等 你的手好冷 Wait, your hands are so cold.
因为现在有点供氧不足 Well, they're not so much cold as just under-oxygenated.
- Hazel Grace - 嗯 - Hazel Grace? - Hmm?
我喜欢你跟我说医学术语的样子 I love it when you talk medical to me.
换新书了 That's different.
这是他给你的吗 Did he give it to you?
你的"这"指的是疱疹吗 By "It," Do you mean herpes?
哇 Wow.
是的 Yes, I did.
这不正是每个母亲的梦想吗 It's a mother's dream.
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嘿 别太心急 Hey, don't worry.
哦 老天 妈妈 我没有心急 Oh, my God, Mom. I'm not worried.
多大点事儿啊 It's not a big deal.
嗯 Yeah.
只是一起出去玩玩 我也没在等他的电话 We just hung out, it's not like I'm waiting for him to call me.
Jake Bugg
- 那个是不是 - 是 - Is that what...? - Yeah.
我以为它们是辣椒来着 Because I thought those were peppers.
今天 在中国 Today, in China,
人们在庆祝国际枸杞节 International Goji Berry Day.
这多棒啊 Isn't that great?
我挺喜欢它的颜色 I like the color.
你给我的那本书是不是少了最后十页
嗯 Mmm-hmm.
- 这是晒干了的 - 很好 - This is the dry. - Uh-huh. Very good.
- 它们挺好吃的 是吧 - 嗯 - They're good, right? - Mmm-hmm.
他们在枸杞节会吃很多枸杞吗 So, do they eat a lot of goji berries on Goji Berry Day?
- 反正我们吃得挺多 - 对啊 - We do. - Yeah. We do.
这本书不是这样就结局了吧
我在甜点里也放了点枸杞 I did something with the dessert, you know
充分体现咱们今天枸杞节的主题 just to try to keep the goji berry theme going.
它们是一种超强抗氧化剂 Because they're an amazing antioxidant.
这句子怎么写了一半就断了
这样就结束了算怎么回事啊
- 我们应该多搞搞这种家庭聚会 - 嗯 我挺喜欢的 - We can celebrate things as a family. - Well, I like it.
每年都搞 We should do it every year.
- 每年 - 我们应该每年都搞一次 - Every year. - We should do it every year.
我知道 I know.
我真的很喜欢这些 I really do like these.
亲爱的 你要不要离开餐桌 Honey, would you like to be excused?
什么 What?
Hazel Grace Hazel Grace.
欢迎接受<无尽痛楚>的甜蜜折磨 Welcome to the sweet torture of reading An Imperial Affliction.
*现在我要打破所有规则* *But now I'm breaking all the rules!*
你还好吗 Are you okay?
*现在我要打破所有规则* *And now I'm breaking all the rules*
呃 我吗 我好极了 Uh... Me? Yeah, I am excellent.
我现在跟Isaac在一块儿 I am, however, with Isaac, and...
Isaac 我把互助小组的Hazel叫来好不好 Isaac, does Support Group Hazel make this better or worse?
*我一直在浪费时间* *I've been wasting all my time*
Isaac 听我说 Isaac! Focus on me.
*一直在浪费时间* *Been wasting all my time*
你多快能到这儿 How fast can you get here?
嗯 Um...
好极了 门开着 Great. Well, the door's open.
我得挂了 拜拜 I gotta run. Bye.
你们好 Hello?
Hazel Hazel.
Isaac 互助小组的Hazel Grace来了 Isaac, Hazel Grace from the Support Group is here.
- 嗨 - 嗨 - Hi. - Hi.
温馨提示下 Uh... A gentle reminder...
Isaac现在情绪有点不稳定 Isaac's in the midst of a psychotic episode right now.
不过你看起来真不错 You look really nice, by the way.
你穿这颜色挺好看 I like this color on you.
谢谢 Thank you.
Isaac Isaac.
Isaac Hazel来了 Isaac, Hazel's here.
嘿 Isaac Hey, Isaac.
嘿 Hazel Hey, Hazel.
你感觉怎么样 How you doing?
还行 I'm doing okay.
Isaac跟Monica分手了 It seems Isaac and Monica are no longer a going concern.
哦 Isaac 我很遗憾 Oh, Isaac, I'm so sorry.
你想聊聊这事吗 Do you want to talk about it?
不 我只想哭和打游戏 No, I just want to cry and play video games.
你跟他聊聊也没关系 However, you know, it doesn't hurt to talk to him...
如果你能从女性角度给点建议的话 if you have any sage words of feminine advice.
我觉得他的反应其实挺正常 I actually think that his response is fairly appropriate.
"疼痛需要被感知" "Pain demands to be felt."
你这是在引用我那本书里的话 You're quoting my book.
她说她想在手术前跟我分手 She said she wanted to break up with me before the surgery...
因为她无法接受 because she couldn't handle it.
即将失明的人是我 而她却说她无法接受 I'm about to lose my eyesight, and she can't handle it.
于是我不停地对她说"永远" I kept saying "Always" To her. Like, "Always."
她却不像往常那样回应我 And she kept talking over me
而是拼命想说服我分手 and not saying it back, and...
感觉像我已经死了一样 It was like I was gone already, you know?
你要知道 有时候 You know, sometimes...
人们并不知道 people don't understand the promises
自己许下的承诺分量有多重 that they're making when they make them.
我知道 I know, but...
我觉得自己像个笨蛋一样 I feel like such a loser.
我还戴着她的项链 I still have her necklace on.
摘下来 Take it off.
兄弟 摘下来 Dude, take that off.
好样的 Yeah.
这才像样 兄弟 这才像样 Here we go, man. Here we go.
我需要发泄 I just want to kick something.
别踢那个 别踢那个 Don't hit that, don't hit that.
啊 Uh...
- 打这个吧 - 抱歉 - Hit this. - Sorry.
我其实这几天一直想打电话给你 I've been wanting to call you for a few days now...
但我打算先等到我对<无尽痛楚> but I've been waiting until I could form
有了深刻的理解和认识再说 a coherent thought about An Imperial Affliction.
等等 One second.
Isaac Isaac.
枕头打不烂 Pillows don't break.
你需要把东西打烂才行 You need to break something.
试试这个吧 Try this.
- 奖杯 - 嗯 - The trophy? - Yeah.
你认真的 Are you sure?
我其实一直想找机会告诉我爸 I've been looking for a way
我挺讨厌篮球的 to tell my father I kind of hate basketball.
尽情地砸吧 Go to town!
永远 Always!
<无尽痛楚> An Imperial Affliction.
嗯 我很高兴你喜欢它 Yes. I'm so glad that you liked it.
我挺喜欢的 可是这个结局 Yes, I did. But the ending.
我知道 有点仓促 I know. It is rather abrupt.
"有点仓促" 你不是吧 这结局简直太邪恶了 "Rather abrupt"? Are you kidding? It's evil!
我理解她为什么要死 I mean, I understand that she dies...
但有个不成文的规定介于作者和 but there's an unwritten contract between author and...
- Gus - 怎么了 - Gus? - Yeah?
- 这个行吗 - 没问题 - Cool? - Sure.
介于作者和读者之间 Between author and reader.
那本书就这么以一个未完成的句子结尾了 And I feel like ending your book in the middle of a sentence...
这可就违反约定了 你说呢 violates that contract, don't you think?
好吧 是 Okay, yes.
我懂你意思了 I know what you mean...
但如果实话实说 but, to be completely honest,
我觉得这样才更真实 I think it's just so truthful.
有的人英年早逝 You just die in the middle of life.
有的故事结束于未完成的句子里 You die in the middle of a sentence.
还有 我也不知道 And, I don't know...
不过我真的很想知道 But I really would like to know
Anna死后其他人都怎么样了 what happens to everyone after Anna dies.
比如Anna的妈妈 Like Anna's mother.
对 还有那个荷兰郁金香男 Yes, and the Dutch Tulip Man.
还有叫Sisyphus的仓鼠 And Sisyphus the Hamster.
正是 Yes!
你有试着和这个Peter Van Houten联系过吗 Have you tried contacting this Peter Van Houten fellow?
我给他写过无数封信了 I've written him so many letters,
但他一封都没回过 but he's never responded.
看起来 他是移居去阿姆斯特丹 Apparently, he moved to Amsterdam
做了隐士 然后就 and became a recluse, and...
- 可惜 - 是啊 - Shame. - Yeah.
Isaac Isaac...
你感觉好点了吗 兄弟 You feeling better, buddy?
疼痛的意义就在于 That's the thing about pain.
被人感觉到 It demands to be felt.
我会帮你整理的 I'll help you clean this up.
Hazel Grace Hazel Grace.
Augustus Waters Augustus Waters.
我一直在想这本该死的书 I cannot stop thinking about this goddamn book.
不用谢 You're welcome.
不过 我们确实需要个结尾 不是吗 However, we do need closure, don't you think?
我写信给Van Houten That is exactly what I was asking
就正是为了这个 Van Houten for in my letters.
但他从没回过 But he never responded.
从没 Um, nope.
亲爱的Waters先生 "Dear Mr. Waters...
感谢您百忙之中发来电子信函 "I am writing to thank you for your electronic correspondence.
我对所有的读者 "I am grateful to anyone who sets aside the time...
都心怀感激 "To read my book."
Augustus Augustus?
怎么 Yes?
你在做什么 What are you doing?
我好像找到了 I may have found...
Van Houten的助理 然后给她发了封邮件 Van Houten's assistant, emailed her.
Augustus Augustus!
她似乎是把那封email转给了Van Houten She may have forwarded that email on to Van Houten.
要我继续念吗 Shall I continue?
哦我的天 当然要 快快快 Oh, my God. Yeah, go, go, go!
在这之中我又格外感谢您 先生 "I am particularly indebted to you, sir."
Hazel Grace 他尊称我为先生了 Hazel Grace, he just called me "Sir."
Augustus 继续念呀 继续念 Augustus, keep reading, keep reading!
既是因为您对<无尽痛楚>的好评 "Both for your kind words about An Imperial Affliction...
也是因为您愿意 "And for taking the time...
告诉我这本书 用您的原话来说 "To tell me that the book, and here I quote you directly...
对您和您的朋友Hazel Grace有着非凡的意义 "'meant a great deal to you and your friend Hazel Grace.
不是真的吧 不是真的吧 You did not! You did not!
不是真的吧 不是真的吧 You did not, you did not!
当然是真的 Of course I did.
对于您的问题我的回答是 没有 "To answer your question, no,
我没有写下任何后续 我也不会这么做 I have not written anything else, nor will I.
我不认为 "I do not feel like
继续向读者分享故事的走向 continuing to share my thoughts with readers...
会造福任何人 "Would benefit either them or me.
尽管如此 还是感谢你 "However, thank you...
以及您的慷慨来信 "For your generous email.
您最诚挚的 Peter Van Houten "Yours most sincerely, Peter Van Houten."
所以是的 就是这样 So, yeah, that just happened.
哦我的天 Oh, my God.
早就想告诉你了 我就是这么的厉害 I've been trying to tell you, I'm kind of awesome.
你觉得我能不能 Do you think that I...
看你的收件箱 Check your inbox.
哦我的天 Oh, my God.
哦我的天 Augustus Oh, my God, Augustus.
我吓坏了 我吓坏了 I'm freaking out. I'm freaking out.
亲爱的 Peter Van Houten先生 Dear Mr. Peter Van Houten,
我的名字叫Hazel Grace Lancaster my name is Hazel Grace Lancaster.
我的朋友Augustus Waters My friend Augustus Waters...
一个在我推荐下看了您的书的人 who read your book at my recommendation...
刚收到了来自这个地址的您的邮件 just received an email from you at this address.
我希望您不会介意他与我分享了那封邮件 I hope you will not mind that he shared that email with me.
不知道您 I was wondering if you
是否会介意告诉我这本书 wouldn't mind answering a few questions I have...
完结后会发生什么 about what happens after the end of the book.
尤其是以下几点 Specifically the following.
Anna的妈妈会嫁给荷兰郁金香男吗 Does Anna's mom marry the Dutch Tulip Man?
还有荷兰郁金香男是有什么秘密吗 And is the Dutch Tulip Man up to something...
还是说他只是搞不清状况 or is he just completely misunderstood?
最后 我希望您 Lastly, I was hoping you
能够散播些希望之光给仓鼠Sisyphus could shed some light on Sisyphus the Hamster.
这些问题困扰了我多年 These questions have haunted me for years...
而且我不知道我还剩多少时间来等待答案了 and I don't know how long I have left to get answers to them.
我知道这些问题不是什么重要的文学问题 I know that these are not important literary questions...
而您的书却是充满着重要的文学问题的 "And that your book is full of important literary questions...
但我真的很想知道这些问题的答案 "But I would just really like to know.
再来就是 如果您决定继续写点什么的话 "And, of course, if you ever do decide to write anything else...
我绝对会很愿意去读的 "I would love to read it.
坦白说 就连您的购物清单我都会愿意拜读 "Frankly, I'd read your grocery lists.
怀着崇高敬意的 Hazel Grace Lancaster "Yours, with great admiration, Hazel Grace Lancaster."
不赖嘛 Not bad.
你真这么觉得 You think?
是啊 有一点做作 Yeah, I mean, it's a bit pretentious...
不过Van Houten可是会用 "倾向性的" but then again, Van Houten uses words like "Tendentious"
和"酒神节"这种词的人 所以 and "Bacchanalia," So...
我想他会喜欢的 I think he'll like it.
现在真的一点了吗 Is it really 1:00 AM?
是吗 Is it?
是啊 看来是的 Yeah, I guess it is.
我应该去睡了 I should probably go to sleep.
好吧 Okay.
好的 Okay.
大概"好的"这词要变成我们的"永远"了 Perhaps "Okay" Will be our "Always."
好的 Okay.
哦我的天 Oh, my God.
亲爱的Lancaster小姐 "Dear Ms. Lancaster...
我无法回答你的问题 至少在邮件中是无法的 "I cannot answer your questions, at least not in writing...
因为这样可能会构成一个续集 "Because to do so would constitute a sequel...
你也许会出版或在网上分享 "Which you might publish or otherwise share on the internet.
并不是我不信任你 但我该如何信任你呢 "Not that I don't trust you, but how could I trust you?
我完全不了解你 "I barely know you.
你应该来阿姆斯特丹一趟 "Should ever you find yourself in Amsterdam,
抽空探望我一次 "Do pay a visit at your leisure."
什么 What?
最诚挚的 Peter Van Houten "Yours most sincerely, Peter Van Houten."
哦我的天 Oh, my God!
我不是在做梦吧 What is this life?
Hazel Hazel?
- 妈妈 - Hazel 怎么了 - Mom! - Hazel, what's wrong?
妈妈 看这个 Mom, look at this.
过来 过来 过来 Come here. Come here, come here.
看 Look.
- 不会吧 - 是真的 - What? - Yeah.
Peter Van Houten Peter Van Houten!
快看他说了什么 Look what he said!
你应该来阿姆斯特丹一趟 "Should ever you find yourself in Amsterdam"!
我必须去 I have to go!
真是难以置信 That's incredible.
他邀请我们去阿姆斯特丹 He invited us to Amsterdam.
阿姆斯特丹 Amsterdam!
- 哇哦 - 我们能去吗 - Wow! - Can we go?
我是说 你认为我们真的能去成吗 I mean, do you think we could actually go?
这可是阿姆斯特丹 I mean, Amsterdam!
我希望你能拥有这世界上你想要的一切 I want you to have everything you want in the world.
但我们并没有去的钱 你知道吗 But we don't have the money, you know?
把全部需要的医疗器械弄过去 Just getting all the equipment over there.
我们要怎么做到 How do we do that?
是啊 当然啦 我很抱歉 Yeah, duh. I'm sorry.
嘿别这样 我才是真的抱歉 Hey, you, I am so sorry.
没关系的 It's okay.
你为什么不求Genies 用你的许愿机会 Why don't you just ask the Genies? Use your wish.
我已经用掉了 提前的奇迹 I already used it. Pre-Miracle.
你用在什么上了 What'd you use it on?
不是迪士尼吧 Not Disney.
Hazel Grace 你别是去了迪士尼公园吧 Hazel Grace, you did not go to Disney World.
- 你别是把临终愿望用在了 - 我当时才13岁 - You did not use your last dying wish... - I was 13.
去迪士尼公园 to go to Disney World.
还有未来世界主题公园 And Epcot Center.
哦我的天 Oh, my God.
其实那还是趟很有意思的旅行呢 It was actually a really fun trip!
这是我听过的最悲伤的故事了 That's the saddest thing I've ever heard.
我见到了高飞呢 I met Goofy!
好了现在我只觉得丢脸了 Now I'm just embarrassed.
你为什么丢脸呢 Why are you embarrassed?
我不敢相信自己喜欢上了一个愿望如此俗套的女孩 I can't believe I have a crush on a girl with such cliche wishes.
太糟糕了 Terrible.
你来吗 You coming?
做核磁共振时最重要的就是 The most important thing in any MRI...
完全静止地躺好 is to lie completely still.
但在那天 这几乎是不可能 But that day, it was almost impossible.
嘿 Gus 你好吗 Hey, Gus! How are you?
嗨 Lancaster夫人 Hi, Mrs. Lancaster.
嘿 Rik Smits的球衣吗 Hey. Rik Smits jersey?
荷兰裔NBA球员
- 是的 - 我可喜欢他了 - Yeah, it is indeed. - I loved that guy.
我是Augustus Waters I'm Augustus Waters.
很高兴见到你 我是Michael Nice to meet you. I'm Michael.
- 看到你真好 - 嗨 Lancaster夫人 - It's good to see you. - Hi, Mrs. Lancaster.
看到你真好 Good to see you.
嗨 Hazel Grace Hi, Hazel Grace.
嗨 Hi.
你愿意和我一起去野餐吗 How would you like to go on a picnic with me?
呃 我很愿意和你一起去野餐 Um, I would love to go on a picnic with you.
走吧 Shall we?
不 等下 No. Let me...
我一身医院味 让我换个衣服就好了 I smell like hospital, so I should just change.
所以呃 So, uh...
你也是个幸存者 对吧 you're a survivor yourself, huh?
是的 Yeah.
我可不是无缘无故截掉这条腿的 I didn't cut this fellow off for the hell of it.
不过确实帮我减掉了不少体重 Although it does make an excellent weight-loss strategy.
腿可重了 Legs are very heavy.
你现在的健康状况如何 How's your health now?
很好 14个月没检查出问题了 It's great. NEC for 14 months.
- 真的吗 - 是呀 - Really? - Yeah.
- 那真是太好了 - 是的 - That's fantastic. - Yeah.
我很幸运 I'm very lucky.
嘿 听着Gus Hey, listen, Gus.
你必须明白Hazel仍有重病在身 You have to understand, Hazel's still pretty sick.
一辈子都会像现在这样 And she will be the rest of her life.
但她会想跟上你的脚步 And she's gonna want to keep up with you.
她就是那种女孩子 但事实上 她的肺 She's that kind of girl. But the truth is, her lungs...
好了吗 Gus Ready, Gus?
好了 Yeah.
好的 回头见 All right. See you soon.
好的 All right.
噢 Oh!
天气真好啊 Such a beautiful day.
是啊 Yeah.
你就是在这里征服了所有的前女友吗 Is this where you take all of your romantic conquests?
每一个都是 Every last one of them.
大概这就是我还是个处男的原因 That's probably why I'm still a virgin.
你不会真的还是处男吧 You are not still a virgin.
真的假的 Are you really?
我来给你看点东西 Let me show you something.
看见这圆了吗 See this circle?
这个圆代表处男 That is a circle of virgins.
啊哈 Uh-huh.
而这 And this...
是一个单腿的十八岁小伙子 is 18-year-old dudes with one leg.
- 噢 - 所以 就是这样 - Oh... - So, yeah.
Joep Van Lieshout的时髦骨头 Funky Bones by Joep Van Lieshout.
听起来像荷兰人 He sounds quite Dutch.
他就是 And he is.
就像Rik Smits Much like Rik Smits.
还有郁金香 And tulips.
吃三明治吗 Sandwich?
让我来猜猜看 Let me guess.
荷兰奶酪和番茄 Dutch cheese and tomato.
抱歉 番茄是墨西哥的 Sorry, the tomatoes are Mexican.
那你也好意思放 How dare you!
嗯 Hmm.
多酷啊 How cool is this?
他们把骨架当做操场 They're using a skeleton as a playground.
想想看 Think about that.
你确实很重视象征性的意义 You do love your symbols.
说起来 你大概在想 Speaking of which, you're probably wondering...
为什么你现在和一个穿着Rik Smits球衣的人 why you're sitting here eating a bad cheese sandwich...
坐在这里吃着不怎么样的奶酪三明治 喝着果汁 and drinking orange juice with a guy in a Rik Smits jersey.
我确实思考了一下 It actually has crossed my mind.
Hazel Grace 就像很多人一样 Well, Hazel Grace, like so many before you...
先听着 我是带着对你无上的感情在说这些话的 and listen, I say this with the utmost of affection...
你愚蠢地用掉了自己的许愿机会 you used your wish moronically.
好了我们都说过了 我当时才十三岁 Okay, we've been through this. I was 13.
安静 我还没说完这伟大的独白呢 Hush! I am in the midst of a grand soliloquy, here.
当年的你年轻 没有主见 You were young, impressionable...
死神直逼你的面前 the Grim Reaper staring you right in the face...
导致你匆忙许下了自己并不想要的愿望 and it led you to rush into making a wish you didn't really want.
但 从来没有看过 But, how could little Hazel Grace,
<无尽痛楚>的小Hazel Grace having never read An Imperial Affliction...
又怎会料到她真正的愿望是去阿姆斯特丹 know that her one true wish was to visit Mr. Peter Van Houten...
见Peter Van Houten 先生呢 in his Amsterdam exile.
但我没能保留愿望 所以 But I didn't save it, so...
幸好我保留了我的 It's a good thing I saved mine.
所以你是说 So, you're saying...
我才不会把我的愿望给你或怎样 Hazel I'm not gonna give you my wish or anything, Hazel.
如果你是那么想的话 If that's what you're thinking.
不过 However...
我 也同样有着 探望Peter Van Houten的兴趣 I, too, have an interest in meeting this Mr. Peter Van Houten...
而且我觉得不带上把他的书 and I don't really think it would make much sense...
介绍给我的女孩子 to meet him without the girl who introduced me
会很奇怪 不是吗 to the book in the first place... now, would it?
所以我和Genies说了 他们都同意了 So I talked to the Genies, and they're all for it.
我们一个月之内启程 We leave in a month.
不是吧 No.
嗯哼 Mmm-hmm.
哦我的天 Oh, my God.
哦我的天 Oh, my God!
Augustus Augustus!
谢谢你 Thank you!
看起来 他们 我不知道他们是不是经常这么做 Apparently, they... I don't know if they do this that often,
但他们愿意也带上我 而且 but they're willing to bring me, too, and...
那真是太好了 That's incredible.
Hazel 那真是太好了 Hazel, that's so beautiful.
我知道 I know.
也有一点出格 And a little insane.
噢 这超级出格了 这这这这都疯了都 Oh, it's super insane. It's... It's... It's... It's crazy!
- 嘛 - 是阿姆斯特丹啊 - Well... - It's Amsterdam!
你们才认识没多久 He just met you...
- 我知道 - 然后他就愿意把自己的愿望给你了 - I know! - ...and he's giving you his wish.
我们其实是分享这个愿望 我们 Well, we're sharing the wish. We're...
我是说 他 他 对的 我们是要分享 I mean, he... He... Yeah. We're sharing it.
真令人感动 That's sweet.
除非 Unless...
什么 What?
他是你男朋友吗 那个是 Is he your boyfriend? Is that...
别说了 别 他不是我的 Stop it! Do not... He is not my...
妈妈 别跑题 我们是在说阿姆斯特丹 Mom, focus, we're talking about Amsterdam.
- 我好喜欢他 我 - 别说了 - I like him so much. I... - Stop.
别打岔 拜托 我可以去吗 Pay attention. Please! Can I go?
好吧 作为你的母亲 我很喜欢这个主意 Right, as your mom, I love this idea.
而且我 我觉得我们应该和Maria医生谈一下 And I... I think we should talk to Dr. Maria.
好吧 Okay.
我不知道 I don't know.
但你说断层扫描的结果很不错 But you said that the PET scan was encouraging.
断层扫描的结果是不错 Well, the PET scan is encouraging,
但我们不知道这种情况能保持多久 but we don't know how long it will stay that way.
好了我又不是要寻求政治庇护所 Okay, I'm not seeking political asylum.
只是几天而已 就当放个假 It's a few days. It's a vacation!
- 这是真的 - 那如果你生病了怎么办 - It's true. - What if you get sick?
在异国他乡 In a foreign country?
阿姆斯特丹也有医生 和癌症 They have doctors in Amsterdam. And cancer.
并不是所有的癌症都相似的 Well, not all cancers are alike,
而且你的尤为不寻常 Hazel and yours is particularly unusual, Hazel.
能让我批准这种旅行的唯一方法就是 The only way I could ever authorize a trip like this
有熟悉你病情的人陪同 would be if someone familiar with your case...
那如果我妈也去呢 What if my mom came?
等等 什么 Wait, what?
如果说你也去呢 What if you came?
我 我相信Genies会想办法的 他们超有钱的 I'm... I'm sure the Genies would hook it up. They're loaded.
那大概就可行了 That just might work.
然后这件事发生了 And then this happened.
嘿 Hey.
嗨 Hi.
- 嘿 - 你没事了 - Hey. - You're okay.
发生了什么 So, what happened?
老样子 The usual.
肺里面的液体阻挡了输氧 Fluid in the lungs preventing oxygenation.
他们放根管子进去 They put a tube in.
他们昨晚排掉了一公升半的液体 They drained a liter and a half last night.
好消息是 The good news is...
没有长肿瘤 no tumor growth.
你身体里没有长新的肿瘤 No new tumors in your body.
我们都松了一大口气 We're so relieved.
只是件小事 Hazel This is just a thing, Hazel.
我们可以掌控的小事 It's a thing we can live with.
Lancaster先生 Mr. Lancaster.
她怎么样了 How's she doing?
好些了 Better.
对 谢谢 好多了 Yeah, thank you. Much, much better.
呃 他们不让我进去 只有家人能进去 Uh, they won't let me in. It's family only.
是啊 抱歉 Yeah, sorry.
没事我明白的 Yeah, I get it.
呃 Um...
你能跟她说一下我来过吗 Could you just tell her I was here?
好的 当然 我当然会说 Yeah, of course. Of course I will.
- 好的 - Gus 听着 你还是回家吧 - Okay. - Gus, listen, why don't you go home?
好好休息一下 Get some rest.
好的 Okay.
通常情况下 肿瘤会阻碍治疗 Normally, the tumors start resisting the treatment...
但那并没有发生 and that hasn't happened here...
目前为止 Yet.
从另一方面来说 On the other hand...
药物可能会让瘤腺体更糟 the drug may be worsening the edema.
事实上 The truth is...
Hazel服用Phalanxifor 的时间比一般人都要长 very few people have been on Phalanxifor as long as Hazel has.
Phalanxifor 一种能够依附于癌细胞并抑制其生长的微粒 为作者自创
我们也不清楚会有什么长期影响 We really don't know the long-term effects.
我们正在努力预防内皮增长 What we're trying to do is prevent endothelial growth...
如果增长太厉害 就会造成病痛 衰弱 which, when over-expressed, can contribute to disease, decay...
血管阻塞 vascular inhibition...
还有瘤的扩散 and the spread of the tumors
我们很努力地在想办法根除这个 we're working so hard to eradicate.
在这种严峻的内皮增生下 The survival rate of patients with severe endothelial growth...
存活率会随着病情发展而降低 decreases exponentially the more the condition advances.
你可以选择放弃的 宝贝 You can let go, sweetie.
别害怕 Don't be afraid.
哦我的天 Oh, my God.
我的女儿就要死了 I'm not gonna be a mom anymore.
我有个问题 I have a question.
请说 Hazel Yes, Hazel?
我还能去阿姆斯特丹吗 Can I still go to Amsterdam?
- 这个节骨眼上这么做不是很明智 - 为什么不 - That would not be wise at this juncture. - Why not?
有什么办法能让我们去成吗 Is there any way we can make that trip happen?
会增加一些风险 It would increase some risks.
去商场也会啊 But so does going to the mall.
是的 但飞机 Yes, but an airplane?
但飞机上有氧气 But they have oxygen on airplanes.
你的病已经是第四阶段了 You're stage four.
这是个我可能再也不会有的机会 This is an opportunity that I may never get again.
再也不会 Ever.
如果药物起效了 我不明白为什么我不能 If the medication is working, I don't understand why I can't...
可能会有某种情况 Perhaps there's a scenario...
没有 No.
我不知道怎么用别的方法来说 Hazel I don't know any other way to say this, Hazel.
你病得太严重了 You're just too sick.
我很抱歉 I'm sorry.
还好吗
你好 Hello?
好的请稍等一下 Yeah, just a sec.
嗨 又是 Gus Hi. Gus... again.
抱歉 她睡着了 Sorry, she's asleep.
好的 呃 好吧 Yeah. Uh, okay.
好的 拜拜 All right. Bye-bye.
我知道你在想什么 I know what you're thinking.
这对他不公平 It's not fair to him.
确实不 It's not.
他不该碰上这种事 He doesn't need this in his life.
没人该 Nobody does.
不值得费心去经历 A lot more trouble than it's worth.
是 你说得对 No, you're right.
你妈和我刚刚也在讨论 Your mom and I were just saying the same thing.
我们曾经有机会把你扔掉 I mean, it could be time we tossed you out on the street.
随便放在孤儿院之类的地方 让你变成他们的问题 Drop you off in an orphanage somewhere, make you their problem.
我是认真的 I'm serious.
我们可不是多愁善感的人 We're not sentimental people.
你好吗
没法沟通真是太糟了
Hazel Grace Hazel Grace.
嗨 Augustus Hi, Augustus.
你还好吗 Are you okay?
不好 No.
怎么了 What's the matter?
跟我说说 Talk to me.
我不知道 I don't know.
所有事情 Everything.
我想去阿姆斯特丹 Gus I want to go to Amsterdam, Gus.
我也想要Van Houten告诉我们 And I want Van Houten to tell us
他的书的最后发生了什么 what happens after his book.
我其实不想要这样的人生 I also don't really want this particular life.
大概只是因为活在天空下吧 I mean, it's really just the sky.
天空让我难过 The sky is making me sad.
而且还有一组可悲的旧秋千套装 And there's this pathetic old swing set...
是我爸在我小时候为我造的 that my dad built for me when I was a kid and...
反正所有事情都让我不开心 我想 It's just everything, I guess.
我想要看那组包含眼泪的秋千套装 Well, I demand to see this swing set of tears.
我懂你的意思了 I do see your point.
这是一组伤感的秋千套装 This is one sad swing set.
Hazeo Grace 我希望你意识到 Hazel Grace, I hope you realize...
尽管你尝试冷落我 that you trying to keep your distance from me
但这丝毫不影响我对你的感情 in no way lessens my affection for you.
你想要疏离我是不可能的 All your efforts to keep me from you are gonna fail.
听着 呃 Look. Uh...
我喜欢你 I like you.
我也喜欢跟你一起玩 还有所有其他事 And I like hanging out with you and everything...
但我不能更进一步了 but I can't let this go on any further.
为什么不 Why not?
因为我不想伤害你 Because I don't want to hurt you.
我不会介意的 I wouldn't mind.
- 不 你不明白 - 我明白的 - No, you don't understand. - I do understand.
你不明白 You don't understand.
我知道你想说什么 I know what you're trying to say.
Hazel 我说我不会介意的 Hazel, I'm saying I wouldn't mind.
能让你来伤我的心是一种殊荣 It'd be a privilege to have my heart broken by you.
Gus 我就是一颗手榴弹 Gus, I'm a grenade.
总有一天我会爆炸 One day I'm gonna explode...
我存在的印记都将被消磨而且 and I'm gonna obliterate everything in my wake and...
我不知道 我觉得这是我的责任 I don't know, I feel like it's my responsibility...
把伤害降到最低 to minimize the casualties.
手榴弹吗 A grenade?
这就是我不养仓鼠的原因 I mean, that's why I don't have a hamster.
我们总归要给这组秋千套装找个归属 Well, we gotta do something about this frickin' swing set.
好吧 Okay.
秋千套装需要一个家 "Swing set needs home."
绝望孤独的秋千套装 "Desperately lonely swing set
需要一个温暖的家 "Needs loving home."
孤独暧昧的恋童癖秋千套装 "Lonely, vaguely pedophilia swing set
正在索求孩子们的小屁股 "Seeks the butts of children."
- 不好吗 - 不 - No? - No.
不好吗 No?
我喜欢这个 I like it.
那就是为什么 That's why.
如果你想知道的话 这就是我喜欢你的原因 In case you're wondering, that's why I like you, Hazel Grace.
你一直忙着做自己 You're just so busy being you, you have
而没有意识到自己有多特别 no idea how utterly unprecedented you are.
你不能说这样的话 You can't say stuff like that.
怎么了 我跟所有人都是这样说话的 What? That's how I speak to all my friends.
我知道 我知道 只是朋友 I know, I know. Friends.
朋友 Friends.
朋友 Friends!
你不能这样 You can't do that!
谢谢你的理解
对于只当朋友
好的
天啦 别再和我调情了
亲爱的Hazel 从Genies那边收到消息 "Dear Hazel, received word via the Genies that you will...
你将会在4号同Augustus Waters "You'll be visiting us with Augustus Waters
还有你母亲一起来探望我们 "And your mother on the fourth."
妈妈 Mom?
怎么 Yeah?
妈妈 Mom!
- 怎么了 - 抱歉 - What's wrong? - Sorry.
没事 我只是在洗澡 No, I was just taking a bath.
你有给Genies发邮件说我们去不成了吗 Did you email the Genies to tell them that the trip was off?
Van Houten的助理刚给我发邮件 Because Van Houten's assistant just emailed me...
说她认为我们仍然会去 and she said that she thinks we're still coming.
什么 What?
我本该和你爸爸一起告诉你这个消息的 I was supposed to tell you with your dad.
妈妈 Mom.
我们要去阿姆斯特丹了 We're going to Amsterdam.
你是说 我们要去阿姆斯特丹了 You're se... We're going to Amsterdam?
我们要去阿姆斯特丹了 We're going to Amsterdam.
我们把整件事都安排妥当了 我们要去 We figured the whole thing out. We're going.
Maria医生 所有人都帮了忙 Doctor Maria, everybody knows.
- 但只能去三天 而不是六天 - 哦我的天 - But only for three days, not six. - Oh, my God.
但所有事情 在那儿还安排了个肿瘤专家 But everything. An oncologist is set there.
所有事情 我们太厉害了 Everything. We're just so good.
我爱你 I love you.
我真的很爱你 I love you so much.
我爱你 I love you.
- 来 坐下 - 我们要去阿姆斯特丹了 - Here, sit down. - We're going to Amsterdam.
我们要去阿姆斯特丹了 We're going to Amsterdam.
- 我们要去阿姆斯特丹了 - 你可以下来和我说话 - We're going to Amsterdam. - You can come talk to me.
但你有一通电话要打 But you've got a phone call to make.
打给他 Call him!
好了 肺们 你们一个礼拜之内别给我添乱 Okay, lungs, you keep your shit together for one week.
明白了吗 再一个礼拜 You got it? One more week.
嘿Gus
希望你把护照准备好了
已经准备就绪啦
噢噢等等 吃的 Oh. Oh, wait, the food.
你忘了什么 What did you forget?
我的护照在你那儿吗 Do you have my passport?
在 我带着呢 Yeah, I've got it.
就像我和Genies说的一样 It's like I said to the Genies...
要么就有格调地旅行 要么就压根别去 "I travel in style, or I don't travel at all."
妈妈 我们要去阿姆斯特丹啦 Mom, we're going to Amsterdam!
我们要去阿姆斯特丹了 现在 We are going to Amsterdam, right now.
你们好 Lancaster一家 Hello, Lancasters.
Gus 嘿 很高兴见到你 Gus. Hey. Nice to see you.
我来拿吧 先生 I'll take that, sir.
Gus 你太有才了 Gus, you're so inventive!
怎么样 Hazel Grace Okay, Hazel Grace?
好极了 Okay!
你鼻子里是什么 What's in your nose?
Jackie Jackie!
真的很抱歉 I'm really sorry about that.
不 完全没关系 No, it's totally fine.
这个叫插管 帮助我呼吸 It's called a "Cannula." And it helps me breathe.
看到这边这个小伙伴了吗 See this little friend right here?
他通过管道给你输送氧气 He feeds oxygen through your tube.
这也能帮助我呼吸吗 Will it help me breath, too?
有可能哟 要试试吗 Maybe. Do you want to try it?
好啊 Okay.
过来 Come here.
好了 There ya go.
好痒呀 It tickles!
不错嘛 挺像那么回事的 Wow, yeah, that's something.
我觉得我的呼吸更顺畅了 I think I'm breathing better.
我本来很想送给你 I would love to give it to you,
但我自己也挺需要它的帮助的 but I kind of could use the help.
- 谢谢你让我试 - 别客气 - Thanks for letting me try it. - You're welcome.
好了 Jackie 我们走吧 All right, Jackie, let's go.
- 谢谢你 保重 - 再见 - Thank you. Take care. - Bye.
1721次航班在46号检票口检票登机 Flight 1721 is now prepared to begin boarding at gate 46...
- 是我们的航班吧 - 是的 - I think that's us. - That's us.
我们要去阿姆斯特丹啦 We are going to Amsterdam!
阿姆斯特丹 Amsterdam.
扶我起来 Come on, help me.
- 我的手湿吗 - 湿的 - What, are they wet? - Wet hands.
- 不好意思啦 - 好恶心 别闹了 - I'm sorry about that. - Gross! Stop it!
你从来没坐过飞机吗 Have you never been on a plane before?
没啊 No.
可刺激了 It's exciting.
- 先生 - 嗯 - Sir? - Uh-huh?
本飞机内禁烟 There's no smoking on this plane.
其他飞机也禁烟 Or any plane.
我不吸烟 I don't smoke.
他只是做个样子 Yeah, it's just a metaphor.
他叼着那个危害健康的玩意 He puts the killing thing in his mouth...
但他不会点燃那玩意 but he doesn't actually give it the power to kill him.
做个样子也是禁止的 Well, that metaphor, it's prohibited on today's flight.
各空乘人员 请准备好 飞机马上就要起飞 Flight attendants, prepare for take off, please.
谢谢配合 Thanks.
你还好吧 Okay?
Gus 这就像坐你开的车一样 Gus, this is what it's like to drive in a car with you.
一点也不好笑 Ha-ha-ha-ha...
噢 Oh...
噢 Oh!
天啊我们在飞 Oh, my God, we're flying.
我们在飞 We're flying!
你看地面上 Look at the ground!
看嘛 Look.
人类历史上没有什么能和这景象媲美 Nothing has ever looked like this in all of human history!
你看那些车 它们就像 Look at the cars. They're like...
你俩真可爱 You two are so adorable.
我们只是朋友 We're just friends.
那是她说的 我可不这么想 Well, she is, I'm not.
哦 天啊 Oh, my!
哇 Whoa!
放开她 你这个贱人 Get away from her, you bitch!
Charli XCX
Hazel 你看 Look at this, Hazel.
太棒了 This is so crazy.
哇 Whoa.
怎么了 What?
看那些玻璃彩绘 Look at the stained glass.
太漂亮了 It's amazing.
我去办理入住 Oh, I'm gonna check us in.
你最好打扮一下 We better get you dressed...
因为今晚有人帮你们预定了 because you have reservations for two tonight,
- 在Oranjee的双人晚餐 - 天 - for dinner at Oranjee. - Oh.
它还写着 "祝您用餐愉快 署名Peter Van Houten" And it says, "Enjoy. Mr. Peter Van Houten."
我查了一下 看起来很棒 So, I looked it up and it sounds amazing.
旅游指南说这家餐馆华丽浪漫 The guide book says it's fancy and very romantic.
好吧 华丽 Right. Fancy...
天啊 Oh, God.
好吧 那你 But, okay, what...
打算穿什么 will you wear?
这是给我的吗 Is that for me?
我的天啊 它太美了 Oh, my God. It's so beautiful.
我就说吧 I'm just saying.
你就说吧 You're just saying?
你是说你完全不担心 What, you're saying that you're totally fine...
让你青春年少的女儿跟一个比她大几岁的男孩 with your teenage daughter running free with an older boy...
在这座以淫乱闻名的城市里玩 in a city that's famous for its vice
你完全不介意这些 and debauchery is totally fine with you?
对 这基本上就是我的意思 Yeah, that's pretty much exactly what I'm saying.
Gus Gus!
你看上去真帅 Oh, you look so handsome!
- 谢谢您 - 哇 - Thank you, ma'am. - Wow.
Hazel Gus到了 Hazel, Gus is here...
他看起来太帅了 looking incredible!
我听说这家餐馆很棒 I hear this restaurant is unbelievable.
哇 Wow.
怎么了 What?
你看起来真美 You look gorgeous.
谢谢 Thanks.
哇 Whoa!
哇 Wow.
应该就是这家了 This is it.
Oranjee 对 就是这家 Oranjee. Yeah, this is it.
好棒 Oh, yeah.
你们的位置在这 Waters夫妇 Your table, Mr. And Mrs. Waters.
谢谢 Thank you.
谢谢你 Gus Thanks, Gus.
不用客气 You are very welcome.
香槟是赠送的 请慢用 The champagne is our gift. Enjoy.
谢谢 Thank you.
晚上好 Good evening.
请慢用 Voila.
- 来一杯 - 来 - Okay? - Okay.
哇 Whoa.
味道绝了 That is amazing.
你们知道Dom Perignon在发现了 Do you know what Dom Perignon said
香槟之后说了什么吗 after he invented champagne?
他说 "快来 我尝到了星星的味道" "Come quickly," He said. "I'm tasting the stars."
欢迎来到Oranjee Welcome to Oranjee.
你们想看菜单 还是看看大厨推荐 Would you like a menu, or will you have the chef's choice?
大厨推荐听起来不错 Chef's choice sounds wonderful.
- 嗯 - 还有 先生 - Mmm. - And, sir, um...
我觉得我们还要来一瓶 something tells me we're gonna need a little bit more of this.
今晚所有装在瓶子里星星都是为你们准备的 We have bottled all the stars for you this evening,
年轻人 my young friends.
- 哦 - 应该是我们的 - Ooh! - I think that's ours.
这位女士的胡萝卜烩饭 Dragon carrot risotto for the lady.
谢谢 Thank you.
还有这位先生的 And for the gentleman.
- 谢谢 - 请慢用 - Thank you. - Enjoy.
嗯 Mmm.
这烩饭要是变成人就好了 I want this dragon carrot risotto to become a person...
这样我就能把她带去拉斯维加斯结婚了 so that I can take it to Vegas and marry it.
我喜欢你的西装 I like your suit.
谢谢 这是我第一次穿它 Thank you. It's the first time I've ever worn it.
你出席葬礼穿的不是这套吗 That's not the suit you wear to funerals?
不是 No.
那套没这套好 That one is not nearly this nice.
我最开始得病的时候 When I first got sick...
他们告诉我说有百分之八十五的概率治好我的癌症 they told me I had an 85 percent chance of being cancer-free.
概率很高 Great odds.
但那意味着我要忍受一年的折磨 还要失去我的腿 But that meant a year of torture, the loss of my leg...
再说还有百分之十五的概率会失败 and, still, a 15 percent chance it might fail.
手术前夕 Just before the surgery...
我问我父母能不能买一套很棒的西装 I asked my parents if I could buy a really nice suit.
所以这算是你的寿衣 So, it's your death suit.
就是这样 That's what it is.
我也有 我十五岁生日的时候 I have one of those. I got it for my fifteenth birthday.
得到了一条裙子 A dress.
我约会的时候不穿它 I don't necessarily think I'd wear it on a date, though.
所以我们算是约会 So, we're on a date?
嘿 你注意点 Hey, you watch it.
我们可是Waters夫妇呢 We are Mr. And Mrs. Waters.
那只是因为她不会说英语 Oh. That's just because she can't speak English.
如果他们问起 我们得装 你明白吗 We should be, though, if they ask. You know?
还记得你说的关于拉斯维加斯的事情吗 Remember what you said about Vegas?
记得 Yeah.
你觉得我能加入吗 Do you think I could join in on that deal?
上帝 God?
可能存在 Maybe.
那天使呢 How about angels?
不存在 Mmm, no.
- 来生 - 嗯 - Afterlife? - Mmm...
不存在 No.
也有可能吧 我不知道 Well, maybe. I don't know.
我觉得我不会直接否认 I guess I wouldn't go as far as to say "No"...
但我需要一些证据 but I would like some evidence.
你呢 What about you?
- 全都相信 - 真的假的 - Absolutely. - Really?
我不是说那种你整天骑着独角兽飞来飞去 I mean, not like a heaven where you ride on a unicorn all day...
住在云做的楼阁里的那种天堂 and live in a mansion made of clouds...
但我确实相信一些东西 but yes, I definitely believe in something.
我是说 否则 I mean, otherwise...
意义何在 what's the point?
也许本来就没有意义 Maybe there is no point.
我不接受这种说法 I won't accept that.
我爱上你了 I am in love with you.
你听到我说的 You heard me.
Augustus Augustus...
我爱上你了 I am in love with you.
我知道爱情就像是对着空气大喊 And I know that love is just a shout into the void...
那声音最终会飘散 and that oblivion is inevitable.
我们都是要死的 And that we're all doomed...
到那一天 and that one day...
我们都会重归泥土 all of our labors will be returned to dust.
太阳会把阴影 And I know that the sun will swallow
投射在我们曾在的土地上 the only Earth we will ever have.
但我还是选择爱你 And I am in love with you.
对不起 Sorry.
还要香槟吗 More stars?
不用了谢谢 No, thank you.
我们应该买单了 I think we'll just have the check.
不 先生 No, sir.
Van Houten先生已经付过钱了 Your meal has been paid by Mr. Van Houten.
什么 What?
我没搞懂这件T恤 I don't really get that shirt.
嗯 Mmm.
但Van Houten会懂的 But Van Houten will get it.
在<无尽痛楚>里 大概有五十多处提到玛格里特 There are, like, fifty Magritte references in An Imperial Affliction.
比利时超现实主义画家勒内·玛格里特 代表作是一幅写有"你看到的不是烟斗"的画作
"你看到的不是烟斗" "This is not a pipe."
但它确实是个烟斗 But it is a pipe.
它不是 But it's not.
它是画出来的烟斗 It is a drawing of a pipe.
懂吗 See?
画出来的和真实存在的是不一样的 A drawing of a thing is not the thing itself.
在T恤上印的画跟实物也是不一样的 Nor is a T-shirt of a drawing of a thing, the thing itself.
喂 Hey, you.
你啥时候变得这么成熟 When did you get so grown up?
谁想知道答案来着 Who's ready for some answers?
我 Me!
就是这儿了 This is it.
我激动得快窒息了 I'm so excited, I can barely breathe.
你不是本来就呼吸不畅吗 As opposed to normal?
滚 Get out of here.
Lidewij Lidewij?
- 你好 - 你好 我是Augustus - Hi! - Hi, I'm Augustus.
- 我是Lidewij - 我是Hazel - Lidewij. - Hazel.
请进 Please, come in.
谢谢 Thank you.
Peter 他们来了 Peter! They're here!
Lidewij "他们"指的是谁 Who the hell is "They," Lidewij?
他们指的是Augustus和Hazel They are Augustus and Hazel...
就是那些跟你通过信的年轻读者 the young fans with whom you've been corresponding.
美国的 The Americans?
你邀请他们来的 You invited them.
请进 Please, come in.
Lidewij 你是知道我为什么要离开美国的 You know why I left America, Lidewij.
因为我不想再和美国人打交道了 To never have to encounter Americans.
你就是美国人 You're American.
这我无能为力 Incurably so.
让他们走 Get rid of them.
我不会这么做的 Peter I will not do this, Peter.
对他们好点 Please, be nice.
过来吧 Come in, please.
不好意思 我帮你们把这收拾一下 Sorry, let me clear this for you.
谢谢 Thank you.
你们俩谁是Augustus Waters Which of you is Augustus Waters?
我是 I am.
这位是Hazel And that's Hazel.
Van Houten先生 我们真的很感谢您能回信 Mr. Van Houten, thank you so much for writing back to us.
很明显我的选择是错的 Clearly an error in judgment.
你们的信是我回的第一封回信 Yours are the first missives to which I've replied,
结果你看 and look where it got me.
要苏格兰威士忌吗 Scotch?
呃 Uh...
不用了谢谢 No, thank you.
那就我一个人喝 Lidewij Just me, then, Lidewij.
再来一杯威士忌加苏打 Another scotch and soda, please.
Peter 你想吃点早餐吗 Perhaps some breakfast first, Peter?
她觉得我酗酒 She thinks I have a drinking problem.
我还觉得地球是圆的呢 I also think the Earth is round.
所以你们喜欢我的书 So, you like my book.
- 我们特别喜欢你的书 - 对 - We love your book. - Yeah.
我们太爱这本书了 We love it.
Augustus Augustus...
他希望能见到你 跟你交流 He made his wish meeting you so that we could talk.
- 别有压力 - 是啊 - No pressure. - Yeah.
你是故意穿得跟她一样吗 Did you dress like her on purpose?
算是吧 Kind of.
还有我们两个都非常感激您 And, incidentally, sir, we both really
昨晚请的晚餐 wanted to thank you for dinner last night.
还有香槟 And for the champagne.
那香槟太好喝了 It was amazing.
简直太神奇了 It was magical.
我们昨晚给他们付了晚饭钱 We bought them dinner last night?
我们乐意之至 It was our pleasure.
你们大老远过来 You've come a long way.
我有什么能帮到你们 What can I do for you?
我们其实想问您 We have some questions...
一些关于书的结尾的问题 obviously, about what happens at the end of your book.
特别是那些Anna死后她周围的人怎样了 Uh, specifically to those who Anna leaves behind.
比如说她妈妈 荷兰郁金香男呢 Like her mom, the Dutch Tulip Man...
你们听瑞典嘻哈吗 How familiar are you with Swedish hip-hop?
听过很少 I would say, limited.
这样啊 Lidewij 快放Bomfalleralla Uh, Lidewij, play Bomfalleralla immediately.
好的 Okay.
先生 我们不说瑞典语 We don't speak Swedish, sir.
谁他妈会说瑞典语 Who the hell speaks Swedish?
重点不在于这歌在扯什么淡 The important thing is not what nonsense the voices are saying...
而在于这歌给人什么感觉 but what the voices are feeling.
你是在逗我们吗 Are you messing with us?
这是个整蛊节目吗 Like, is this some sort of performance?
Gus 坐下 Gus, sit down.
在书的结尾 Anna的 All right, so at the end of the book, Anna's...
假如你在和乌龟赛跑 Let's imagine you're racing a tortoise.
乌龟在你前面十码的地方起跑 The tortoise has a ten-yard head start.
那在你跑这十码的时间里 In the time it takes you to run ten yards...
乌龟可能又跑了一码 这样下去 the tortoise has moved maybe one yard, and so on, forever.
你虽然比乌龟快 You're faster than the tortoise,
但你赶不上它 明白吗 but you can never catch him, you see?
你只能缩短你们之间的距离 You can only decrease his lead.
当然在理想状态下 Now, certainly, you can run past the tortoise...
你最终会超过乌龟 as long as you don't contemplate the mechanics involved.
但怎么才能做到呢 But the question of "How?"
这个问题复杂到 turns out to be so complicated...
没人能真正解决它 that no one really solved it...
直到康托证明了一些无穷大 until Cantor's proof that some infinities
康托 德国数学家 集合论的创立人
大于另一些无穷大 are bigger than other infinities.
我觉得这就是你的问题的答案 I assume that answers your question.
Hazel 抱歉 我根本不知道发生了什么 Hazel, I'm sorry. I have no idea what's going on.
但从信里面看你很聪明啊 Waters先生 Yet you seemed so intelligent in print, Mr. Waters.
难道是癌细胞扩散到你的大脑了 Has the cancer found its way into your brain?
Peter Peter.
我们能不能就花一小会儿讨论Anna Can we, for one second, just focus on Anna?
求您了 Please?
我知道故事以半个句子 I understand that the story ends
为结尾 in the middle of a sentence...
可能是因为她死了 或者她病重到无法继续讲述 because she dies, or that she becomes too sick to continue...
我没兴趣讨论那本书 I am not interested in talking about that book.
但这不代表她的 But that doesn't mean that her
家人朋友生活也到此为止了 对吧 family and friends don't have a future, right?
对吧 Right?
我说了我没兴趣 I said I'm not interested.
但你承诺了 But you promised!
什么都没发生 他们只是小说人物 Nothing happens! They're fiction!
小说结束了他们也不存在了 They cease to exist the moment the novel ends.
他们不能消失啊 But they can't!
在文学层面上我能理解 但 I get it in a literary sense or whatever, but...
我说不下去了 Lidewij. I can't do this, Lidewij.
根本没法想象他们不存在 It's impossible not to imagine what...
我不会纵容你幼稚的幻想 I will not indulge your childish whims.
我不会用你已经习惯的方式 I refuse to pity you in the manner
来可怜你 in which you are accustomed.
- 我不需要你可怜 - 你当然需要 - I do not want your pity! - Of course you do!
所有患病的孩子都靠这个活着 你也一样 Like all sick kids, your existence depends on it.
- 你的生命注定要走向终结 - Peter - You are fated to live out your days... - Peter!
这在你小时候确诊的一刻已经注定了 as the child you were when diagnosed.
孩子会相信小说结束了但故事还在继续 A child who believes there is a life after a novel ends.
作为成年人 我们很同情你们 And we as adults, we pity this.
所以我们花钱给你们治疗 买供氧设备 So, we pay for your treatments, your oxygen machines.
Peter 够了 Peter, that's enough.
你是进化过程中的一个小意外 You are a side-effect to an evolutionary process...
进化是不会考虑个体感受的 that cares little for individual lives.
你们是基因突变失败的产物 You are a failed experiment in mutation.
你给我听着 混蛋 Listen, douchepants...
关于我的病 there is nothing that you're gonna tell me about my disease...
我知道的比你多得多 that I don't already know.
我现在来这儿只是为了一件事 I came here for one thing and one thing only.
就是要你告诉我这本破书最后 That is for you to tell me what happens
发生了什么 at the end of this goddamn book!
我没法告诉你 I can't tell you.
- 鬼话 - 我没法说 - Bullshit! - I can't.
那就编 Then make something up!
你们给我走 I want you to leave.
你有没有试过问问自己 Have you ever stopped to ask yourself...
为什么你那么在乎你那愚蠢的问题 why you care so much about your silly questions?
去你妈的 Oh, go fuck yourself.
嘿 没事的 Hey, it's okay.
没事的 It's okay.
我可以给你写个续集 I'll write you a sequel.
好吗 我给你写个续集 All right? I'll write you a sequel.
一定强过 It'll be better than any
那个醉鬼写的任何一坨垃圾 piece of shit that drunk guy could write.
会很丰满 充满力量和牺牲 It'll have blood, and guts, and sacrifice.
你一定会喜欢的 You'll love it.
对不起 我让你把愿望花在那个混球身上了 So sorry that I spent your wish on that asshole.
你没花在他身上 你把愿望花在我们身上了 No, you did not spend it on him. You spent it on us.
Hazel和Augustus Hazel and Augustus!
我很抱歉 I'm very sorry.
他的境遇把他变得很残忍 Circumstance has made him cruel.
我以为让他见见你们可以帮到他 I thought meeting you would help him...
让他看看他的作品成就了现实生活中的人 that he could see that his work has shaped real lives.
结果却 我真的很抱歉 But... I'm very sorry.
我可以带你们看看这周围 Perhaps we can do some sightseeing?
你们去过Anne Frank的故居吗 Have you been to the Anne Frank house?
我不会跟那个男的去任何地方 I'm not going anywhere with that man.
不 No.
不算上他 He is not invited.
恐怕里面没电梯 I'm afraid there's no elevator.
哦 没事 Oh. That's all right.
台阶很多 There are many stairs.
- 台阶很陡 - 我可以爬 - Steep stairs. - I can do it.
- Hazel 其实我们没必要 - 我可以的 - Hazel, we don't have to... - I can do it.
那就走吧 Let's go.
Frank家族来自德国法兰克福 Frank's family came from Frankfurt, in Germany.
她所著的<安妮日记>举世闻名 Anne Frank's diary would become world famous.
在这种时期生活很艰难 It's difficult in times like these.
我没有放弃理想简直是个奇迹 It's a wonder I haven't abandoned all my ideals.
它们看起来荒唐 太不切实际 They seem so absurd and impractical...
但我仍然坚持 因为我相信 yet I cling to them because I still believe...
无论如何 人的内心终究是善良的 in spite of everything, that people are truly good at heart.
我不可能把我的生活 It's utterly impossible for me to build my life...
继续走吗 Shall we?
- 当然 - 当然 - Yeah. - Yeah.
Hazel 我可以帮你拿 Hazel, I'll carry it if you want.
我自己来 I got it.
哇 Wow.
Frank一家就藏在这个书柜里面 So this is the actual bookcase that hid the Frank family.
哇 Whoa.
我来拿吧 I got it.
谢谢 Thank you.
我们还太年轻 还不知道怎么面对这些问题 We're much too young to deal with these problems...
但这些问题一直持续不断向我们涌来 but they keep thrusting themselves on us...
最终 我们被迫要想出一个解决方案 until, finally, we're forced to think up a solution.
Hazel 你还好吗 You okay, Hazel?
我没事 Yeah.
别担心 慢慢来 Don't worry, take your time.
不好意思 Sorry.
怎样 Yeah?
没事 Yeah.
我真想骑着车 跳着舞 吹着口哨 看着这个世界 体验青春 感受自由 1943年12月24日
当我仰望星空 And yet, when I look up at the sky...
我会觉得一切都会好的 I somehow feel that everything will change for the better.
这些暴行 也将会结束 That this cruelty, too, will end.
你还好吗 You Okay?
还好 Yeah.
Hazel 我觉得到此为止吧 Hazel, I think that's enough.
你不用这么 你明白吗 You don't need... You know?
不 Uh-huh.
我可以的 I got this.
万事皆有其因 All is as it should be.
上帝愿见人们享乐 God wishes to see people happy.
- 只要有希望的地方 - Hazel - Where there is hope... - Hazel.
就有生命 there is life.
- 太棒了 - 是啊 - Well done. - Yeah.
你还好吗 You okay?
还好 Yeah.
就是这儿了 看啊 This is it, look.
没事吧 All right?
没事 天啊 Oh, yeah. Oh, my God.
谢谢 Thanks.
Frank一家只有Anne的爸爸Otto The only member of the Frank family to survive was Otto.
活了下来 Anne's father.
在那种时候 At such moments...
安妮·弗兰克 1929年6月12日出生在德国法兰克福市 1945年3月9日死于贝尔根贝尔森集中营
我不能想着苦难 I can't think about the misery...
我得想着仍然存在的美好 but about the beauty that still remains.
尝试去再次感受你内心里的幸福 Try to recapture the happiness within yourself.
想想周遭事物的美好 Think of all the beauty in everything around you...
保持愉悦 and be happy.
太棒了 Bravo.
我爱上他的过程正如入睡的过程一样 I fell in love with him the way you fall asleep.
缓慢进入 然后无法自拔 Slowly, and then all at once.
从膝盖以上的部分开始 it just sort of ends right above where the knee would be...
越来越细 and tapers off.
你说什么 What?
我的腿 My leg.
给你点心理准备 You know, just so you're prepared.
Gus Gus...
别想太多了 get over yourself.
等等 Wait.
不行啦 卡住了 I can't, it's stuck.
我爱你 Augustus Waters I love you so much, Augustus Waters.
我也爱你 Hazel Grace I love you too, Hazel Grace.
我太爱你了 So, so much.
Augustus 我无法呼吸了 Augustus, I can't breathe.
没关系 It's okay.
Hazel Hazel.
你真美 You're so beautiful.
别闹 Stop.
真的 你太美了 No, you're so beautiful.
我真幸运 I'm so lucky.
亲爱的Augustus
处男
18岁独腿男孩
爱你的 Hazel Grace
天啊 Oh, my God.
我不敢相信你叫那个男的混蛋 I can't believe you called him "Douchepants."
- 我知道你会这么说 - 是吗 - I know! - You did?
你怎么想的 How did you come up with that?
我也不知道 当时就脱口而出了 I don't know, it just came out.
我太气愤了 I was so angry.
他简直是个怪物 What a monster.
妈妈 那太恐怖了 Mom, it was awful.
然后呢 Then what happened?
我们去了Anne Frank的故居 We went to Anne Frank House.
你们去了 Oh, you did?
- 那里很棒 - 太棒了 - It was really awesome. - Was that incredible?
我们过得很开心 It was so awesome.
之后呢 And after that?
我们散了散步 We just walked around.
听起来挺好的 That sounds lovely.
啊 天呐 Oh, my gosh,
我们应该还有几个小时的时间对吧 we probably still have a few hours, right?
我们去梵高博物馆怎么样 Should we go to the Van Gogh Museum?
随你 Whatever you want.
时间也许不允许我们看完所有的东西 Probably don't have time to do everything, but...
大不了再来一次 You're just gonna have to come back, is all.
现在别开玩笑了行吗 Could you just not be ridiculous right now, please?
Hazel 我没有开玩笑 Hazel, I'm not being ridiculous.
我只是积极向上 I'm being positive.
Lancaster夫人 Mrs. Lancaster?
嗯 Yeah?
我可以跟Hazel单独待会吗 Do you think Hazel and I can just have a little time alone?
当然了 Gus Sure, Gus.
我回房间去了 Um, I am gonna run to the room...
你们需要什么尽管来找我 and be ready whenever you guys want to do something.
要出去走走吗 Want to go for a walk?
怎么了 What is it?
在你进医院之前 Just before you went into the hospital, there was this...
我觉得屁股疼 I felt an ache in my hip.
所以我做了正子扫描 So, I had a PET scan...
片子上星星点点的就像挂彩灯的圣诞树 and it lit up like a Christmas tree.
我的胸部和肝里面 The lining of my chest and my liver...
到处都是 Everywhere.
对不起 I'm sorry.
我早应该告诉你 I should've told you.
这太不公平了 It's so unfair.
世事不总是随人愿的 Apparently, the world is not a wish-granting factory.
嘿 听着 Hey, listen.
别为我担心 好吗 Hazel Grace Don't you worry about me, Hazel Grace, okay?
我会想办法活下来 I'm gonna find a way to hang around here
继续烦你的 and annoy you for a long time.
你疼吗 Are you in pain?
不 No.
我很好 I'm okay.
你很好 You're okay?
是的 Okay.
我觉得你应该不会忘记这一切 I don't suppose you can just forget about this?
你懂的 别像对待将死之人一样对我 You know, just treat me like I'm not dying.
我不觉得你快死了 Augustus I don't think you're dying, Augustus.
癌症只是路过而已 You've just got a touch of cancer.
如果我们现在当街亲热 Would it be absolutely ludicrous...
会不会很可笑 if we just made out?
现在 Right now?
大概吧 Probably.
哦 Oh...
欢迎回来 我亲爱的家人 和Gus
Isaac 你眼睛怎么样了 So how are your eyes, Isaac?
它们挺好的 They're good.
唯一的问题是不在我的脸上 They're not in my head, is the only problem.
除此之外 Besides that...
呃 Well, um,
现在我整个人都是由癌细胞组成的 it appears my entire body's made out of cancer now.
所以 So,
兄弟 很遗憾 我略胜一筹 sorry to one-up you, dude.
你 呃 Did you, uh...
你给他写了悼词吗 Did you write his eulogy yet?
- 喂 - 什么 - Dude. - What?
这有什么 What?
我还没告诉她 Isaac I haven't told her yet, Isaac.
你们在说什么 What are you talking about?
哦 Oh.
对不起 Sorry.
Augustus Augustus?
我需要有人在我的葬礼上致辞 I need speakers at my funeral.
所以 我希望你和Isaac能 So, I was hoping that you and Isaac,
当然 主要是你 but mostly you...
能想一下 would be, um,
在葬礼上说些什么 kind enough to whip something up.
我很乐意这么做 I would love to do that.
谢谢你 Thank you.
你们太甜蜜了 You guys are cute.
甜蜜得让我想吐 Makes me sick.
太恶心了 You guys are gross.
Monica联系你了吗 Have you heard from Monica?
没有 一次都没有 Nope, not a thing.
她居然都没有给你发信息 She hasn't even texted you...
- 确认你的状况 - 没有 - to make sure you're okay? - Not once.
从来没有 Not once.
我讨厌那个女生 I hate that girl.
不过这世上还有很多女生 But there are tons of other girls.
你们不用担心我 You guys don't have to worry about me.
在互助小组 I'm like, in support group,
有个新来的女生 there's this new girl...
她有着巨大无比的 and she has these humongous...
你是怎么知道的 How do you even know that?
我虽然看不见 但还是有感觉的 I'm blind, but I'm not that blind.
Hazel Grace Hazel Grace?
干嘛 Hmm.
你有没有5块钱 Do you happen to have five dollars?
好吧 接下来怎么办 Okay, so, now what?
嘿 Hey, guys?
我闻到了蛋的味道 是吃的蛋吗 I smell eggs. That eggs?
到了吗 Is it there?
- 到了 - 没错 - It's there. - Mmm-hmm.
我好紧张 I'm nervous.
紧张 Nervous?
Monica在吗 Is Monica in there?
- Monica在不在无关紧要 - 好吧 - Dude, it doesn't matter where Monica is. - Ok.
我们这么做不是为了Monica This is not about Monica.
- 我只是觉得她 - 是为了你 - I just feel like she's gonna be... - This is about you.
好吧 能给我来个蛋吗 Okay. Can I have an egg?
Hazel Grace Hazel Grace...
把蛋给我 egg me.
拿好 Egged.
Isaac Isaac.
好吧 准备开始了 All right, here we go.
- 你可以的 - 加油 - You got this. - All right. Come on.
我什么都没听到 I didn't hear anything.
没事的 再往左边一点 It's all right. A little more to your left.
等等 Wait,
是往我的左边扔 还是瞄准左边 throw to my left, or should I aim a little left?
瞄准左边 Aim left.
行 Okay.
往左边点就好了 Left-er.
Gus 我觉得我们该等到晚上再说 Gus, I think we should wait until dark.
对Isaac来说 每时每刻都是夜晚 It's all dark to Isaac.
拜托 我又不是听不见 Dude, I'm not deaf.
我只是看不见 I'm just blind.
所以我能听到你们拿我的缺陷开玩笑 So I can hear when you make fun of my disability.
对不起 I'm sorry.
- 我不喜欢这样 - 对不起 - And I don't love it. - Sorry.
- 我该往哪扔 - 用力扔就行 - Where do I throw? - Just throw hard.
就是这样 Yes.
- 哇 - 太棒了 - Yes! - Yeah!
什么 什么 What? What?
我扔中了 我居然扔中了 I hit it! I hit it!
这下我知道该往哪扔了 Now I know exactly where to line it up.
真是太振奋人心了 That was so exhilarating!
- 继续 - 再来一个 - Keep it going. - Go again.
- 再来 - 继续 - Go again. - Keep going.
继续扔 别停下来 Keep throwing, keep throwing.
再来点 再给我点 Give me more, give me more, give me more!
呃啊 Oh!
停停停 Oh, stop, stop, stop!
- Isaac - 哦 - Isaac. - Oh.
你好 Hello.
你是Monica的妈妈吗 Are you Monica's mother?
我是 I am.
你好 女士 Hello, ma'am.
你的女儿做了非常对不起我们的事 Your daughter, she's done a great injustice.
我们是来报仇的 So we've come here seeking revenge.
我们虽然看起来不怎么样 You see, we may not look like much...
但是 我们三个人加起来 but between the three of us,
有五条腿 四只眼睛 we have five legs, four eyes...
和两个半正常工作的肺 and two-and-a-half working pairs of lungs.
而且我们还有两打鸡蛋 But we also have two dozen eggs...
所以 如果我是你 so if I were you,
我就会退回屋里 I would go back inside.
兄弟 Dude,
- 她进去了 - 没错 - it actually worked? - Yep.
这是我听过的最愚蠢的话 That was the stupidest speech I've ever...
这样居然都行 That actually worked?
好了 There you go.
慢着 Hold on.
太爽了 This feels so good!
Augustus Augustus?
Hazel Grace Hazel Grace.
嗨 Hi.
天呐 Oh, my God.
嗨 嗨 我爱你 Hi, hi. I love you.
我在加油站 I'm at the gas station.
你在什么地方 You're what?
我觉得有点不对劲 Something is wrong.
你得 You gotta...
你能过来吗 Can you come?
你能过来帮我 Can you come and help me?
Gus Gus!
Gus Gus.
宝贝 怎么了 Babe, what's going on?
你看 Look.
Gus 伤口感染了 Gus, it's infected.
深呼吸 Take a deep breath.
Gus 我必须得找人过来帮忙 Gus, I have to call somebody.
别 不要 No, no.
别打911 Please don't call 9-1-1.
求你了 Please.
别打给我爸妈或者报警 Don't call my parents or 9...
如果你打给他们 我永远都不原谅你 I will never forgive you if you call them.
Gus 你在这里干什么 Gus, what are you doing here?
你在这干什么 What are you doing here?
我想买烟 I wanted to buy cigarettes.
我不知道之前的那包烟到哪去了 I don't know what happened to my pack.
我可能把它弄丢了还是怎么的 I might have lost it or something,
或者他们把它拿走了 or they took it,
但是我只是 but I just...
我想为我自己做点事 I wanted to do something for myself, you know?
我想凭我自己的力量完成 I wanted to do it myself.
- 我必须得打911 - 不行 - I have to call 9-1-1. - No!
我一定要打 I have to.
不要啊 No!
你好 911吗 Hi, 9-1-1?
呃 我们需要一个救护车 Um, we need an ambulance.
我恨我自己 I hate myself!
我的名字是Hazel Grace Lancaster My name is Hazel Grace Lancaster.
请马上过来 Please hurry.
我们在加油站的银色吉普车上 We're in a silver Jeep at the gas station.
我多希望我能说Augustus Waters I wish I could say that Augustus Waters
将他的幽默感保持到了最后一刻 kept his sense of humor until the end.
他的勇气从未动摇过 That not for a single moment did his courage waver.
但事实并非如此 But that is not what happened.
太疼了 It hurts so much.
我太蠢了 I'm so stupid.
宝贝 没事的 Baby, it's okay.
没事的 It's okay.
- Hazel - 怎么了 - Hazel? - Hmm.
你能给我讲个故事吗 Will you tell me a story?
故事 A story?
一首诗也行 Or, like, a poem?
我知道 我知道一首诗 I do know... I... I know a poem.
能念给我听吗 Will you tell me it?
William Carlos William的 The Red Wheelbarrow
<红色手推车> by William Carlos Williams.
"那么多东西" "So much depends"
"全靠一辆红色手推车" "upon a red wheelbarrow"
"晶莹闪亮于雨水中" "Glazed with rain water"
"旁边有一群白鸡" "Beside the white chickens."
这样就没了吗 That's it?
就结束了吗 Is that all?
不 不 当然不是 No, no, no, of course not.
当然不是 Of course not.
"那么多东西 " "So much depends upon..."
"全靠一片蓝天" "A blue sky"
"树枝将它划出空隙" "Cut open by the branches of trees"
"那么多东西 全靠" "And so much depends upon the..."
"透明的胃管" "The transparent G-tube"
"从蓝色嘴唇的男孩肚子中" "Erupting from the belly"
"喷涌而出" "of the blue-lipped boy"
"那么多东西 全靠" "So much depends"
"这个世界的旁观者" "On this observer of the universe"
他怎么样了 How's he doing?
他昨晚差点就熬不过去了 Hazel He's had a tough night, Hazel.
血压很低 His blood pressure's low.
他的心脏 His heart...
那化疗呢 What about the chemo?
他们会停止化疗 They are gonna stop the chemo.
我能看看他吗 Can I see him?
我们会告诉他你来过 We'll tell him you were here.
- 好 - 行吗 - Yeah. - Okay.
好 Yeah.
如果你不介意的话 I'm just gonna hang out for a while,
我还想再待会儿 if you don't mind.
当然不介意 Yeah, of course.
上来吧 儿子 Here we go, bud.
- 好了吗 - 没事的 亲爱的 - Good? - All right, sweetie.
走吧 Okay.
嗨 Hi.
你在想什么 What are you thinking about?
遗忘 Oblivion.
我知道这样很孩子气 但是 I know it's kid's stuff or whatever, but...
我一直以为我会成为一个英雄 I always thought I would be a hero.
我一直以为我会给后人留下传奇故事 I always thought I'd have a grand story to tell.
像是那种 You know,
会被刊登在所有报纸上的故事 something they would publish in all the papers, and...
我不应该只是无名之辈 I mean, I was supposed to be special.
你是很特别 Augustus You are special, Augustus.
是的 我知道 但是 Yeah, I know. But...
你知道我的意思 you know what I mean.
我懂 我只是不同意你的想法 I do know what you mean, I just don't agree with you.
不同意你这种想要被铭记的无理执着 You know, this obsession you have with being remembered?
- 别生气 - 我已经生气了 - Don't get mad. - I am mad.
我生气是因为我觉得你是特别的 I'm mad because I think you're special.
这样难道不够吗 And is that not enough?
你认为唯一有意义的人生 You think that the only way to lead a meaningful life...
就是让所有人都记住你 is for everyone to remember you,
所有人都爱你 for everyone to love you.
但是 Gus Guess what, Gus.
这就是你的人生 This is your life, okay?
这就是你能得到的全部 This is all you get.
你有我 你有你的家人 You get me, and you get your family,
你在这世上活过 仅此而已 and you get this world, and that's it.
如果这样对你来说不够的话 And if that's not enough for you,
我很遗憾 但是你至少拥有过 then I'm sorry, but it's not nothing.
因为我爱你 Because I love you.
我会记住你 And I'm gonna remember you.
对不起 I'm sorry.
你说得对 You're right.
我只是想你能为自己的人生感到开心 I just wish you would be happy with that.
嘿 Hey.
我的人生很棒 Hazel Grace It's a good life, Hazel Grace.
你的人生还没结束呢 It's not over yet, you know.
哦 Augustus Oh, Augustus.
癌症惯例中唯一一项不那么愚蠢的事 One of the less bullshitty conventions of the cancer genre...
就是众所周知的"最后的好日子" is the convention known as the "Last Good Day"...
那时 无法阻挡的连续低潮 when it seems like the
会突然高涨 inexorable decline has suddenly plateaued...
痛苦会暂时变得能够忍受 when the pain is, just for a minute, bearable.
但问题是 你不可能会知道 The problem, of course, is that there's no way of knowing...
哪天才是你最后的好日子 that your last good day is your last good day.
在那之前 每天都只是还过得去 At the time, it's just another decent day.
嗨 Augustus Hello, Augustus.
晚上好 Hazel Grace Good evening, Hazel Grace.
问你个问题 A quick question for you.
我让你准备的悼词你写了没有 Did you ever write that eulogy I asked you to prepare?
我可能写了 I may have.
你觉得在接下来的几分钟内 Do you think you could find your way down...
你能赶到真正的耶稣之心吗 to the literal Heart of Jesus in the next few minutes?
应该能吧 有什么要紧事吗 Maybe. Is everything okay?
我爱你 Hazel Grace I love you, Hazel Grace.
- 能把钥匙给我吗 - 哦 - Can I have the keys? - Oh.
你去哪 Where you going?
- 马上就吃饭了 - 我必须去 - We're gonna eat something. - I have to go.
Hazel 你会饿的 Hazel, you have to be hungry.
你连午饭都没吃 You didn't even eat lunch.
我不饿 I'm just not hungry.
随便吃点沙拉 Have a little salad or something.
Hazel 你不能不吃饭 Hazel, you cannot not eat.
我真的吃不下 I'm aggressively un-hungry.
Hazel 我知道Gus病了 Hazel, I know Gus is sick,
但是你也得照顾好你自己 but you got to take care of yourself.
这跟Gus无关 This has nothing to do with Gus.
那至少你得保持健康 Well, then you've got to stay healthy.
来吧 Come on,
随便吃点都行 亲爱的 just eat something, honey.
"保持健康" "Stay healthy"?
好吧 我压根就不健康 Okay, I'm not healthy,
我会死的 and I'm gonna die.
你没意识到吗 Do you realize that?
我是将死之人 而你会好好地活下去 I'm dying, and you're gonna be here...
到时 你再也不用 and you're not gonna have
忙前忙后地照顾任何人 anyone to look after, or hover around...
你不会再是一个母亲 我很抱歉 and you're not gonna be a mother anymore, and I'm sorry...
但是我也不能改变什么 but there's nothing I can do about that.
所以 我能走吗 So, can I please go?
- Hazel 别 - 你为什么要这么说 - Hazel, do not... - Why would you say that to me?
因为你自己这么说过 Because you said that.
你在说什么 What are you talking about?
在重症监护室 In the ICU.
Hazel Hazel...
那不是事实 That's not the truth.
我错了 I was wrong.
好吗 All right?
即使你死了 Even if you died...
"当"我死了 "When."
即使当你死了 Even when you die...
我也将永远是你的母亲 I'll always be your mother.
这是我人生中最美好的事 It's the greatest thing I'll ever be.
这是我最大的恐惧 妈妈 That is my biggest fear, Mom.
当我死了 When I am gone...
你将无法正常地过自己的人生 you're not gonna have a life anymore.
你只会坐着 盯着墙 You're just gonna sit and you're gonna stare at walls...
甚至想着自我了结 or you're gonna off yourselves or...
Hazel 亲爱的 Hazel, honey,
我们不会这样的 we're not gonna do that.
失去你 Losing you...
肯定会像在地狱中煎熬一样痛苦 That is gonna hurt like hell.
但是你知道即使再痛 But you of all people know it's possible
都可以忍着活下去 to live with pain.
人就是这样 You just do it.
我在进修社会福利课程 I'm taking classes in social work.
等等 你在干什么 Wait, you're what?
是的 Yeah, um...
如果我能够利用自身经验 You know, if I can take what we've been through...
来帮助他人 and help other people,
像是家庭咨询服务 maybe counsel families...
妈妈 你为什么不告诉我 Mom, how could you not tell me this?
我们不想让你觉得自己被抛弃了 We didn't want you to feel abandoned.
觉得被抛弃 Feel abandoned?
爸妈 这是 You guys, this is...
这是最好的消息 This is the best news.
你去吧 You go.
好吗 Okay?
宝贝 Baby.
一直往前走 没错 Straight ahead, yeah.
往左边一点 To your left, a little bit.
那是个阶梯 That's a step, right?
是的 把你的手伸出来 Yeah, put your hand out.
你的右边有个讲台 There's a podium to your right.
没错 很好 Yeah, perfect.
非常好 Beautiful.
嗨 Hi.
你迟到了 You're late.
你怎么样了 How you doing?
你看上去真迷人 Hazel Grace You look ravishing, Hazel Grace.
是吧 我也觉得 I know, right?
你们在干什么 What's going on, guys?
告诉她 Gus Tell her, Gus.
我想要参加我自己的葬礼 I wanted to attend my own funeral.
我非常希望我能 I mean, I'm hopeful that
以鬼魂的形式参加 但是 I'll be able to attend as a ghost, but...
不怕一万 只怕万一呀 However, just in case it doesn't work out...
所以我弄了这个葬礼预演 I decided to plan this pre-funeral.
准备好了吗 Ready?
Augustus Waters是一个自大的混蛋 Augustus Waters was a cocky son of a bitch.
但是我们原谅他了 But we forgave him.
不是因为他长得无与伦比的帅 Not because of his superhuman good looks...
或是因为他才19岁 or because he only got 19 years
应该享受更多 when he should've gotten way more.
18岁好吗 18 years, buddy.
得了吧 你觉得我真的不知道吗 Dude, come on. Really?
我只是假设你能活的更久一点 I'm assuming you have a little more time,
你这个爱插嘴的混蛋 you interrupting bastard.
居然在我致辞的中途打断我 Interrupt me in the middle of my eulogy.
你这时候应该死了才对 You're supposed to be dead.
但是当未来的科学家 But when the scientists from the future...
带着机械眼睛 come to my house
来到我家 with robot eyes...
让我试着戴戴 and they tell me to try them on...
我会让那些科学家滚蛋 因为 I'm gonna tell those scientists to piss off, because...
Gus 我不想看到没有你的世界 because Gus, I don't even want to see a world without you.
我真的不想 I don't.
我不想看到没有Augustus Waters的世界 I don't want to see a world without Augustus Waters.
表明我的立场后 Then, having made my point,
我可能还是会戴上机械眼睛 I'll probably put the robot eyes on...
因为 那毕竟是机械眼睛啊 because, you know, they're robot eyes.
听起来太棒了 Sounds awesome.
而且 我不知道 呃 And I don't know... Um...
这实在太难了 This is just so hard.
呃 Um...
祝你一路走好 Godspeed.
就这样 Yeah.
Hazel 能过来帮我吗 Hazel, can I get a hand here?
右边一点点 To the right, a little bit.
对的 转身 Yeah, and turn around.
坐下 可以了 Sit down. There you go.
轮到你了 Hazel Grace It's down to you, Hazel Grace.
大家好 Hello.
我是Hazel Grace Lancaster My name is Hazel Grace Lancaster...
Augustus Waters是我生命中的"星恋"爱人 and Augustus Waters was the star-crossed love of my life.
美剧<星恋> 讲述人类女孩和外星人之间的曲折恋情
我们的爱情故事如史诗一般 Ours was an epic love story...
所以我可能会说不到一句话 and I probably won't be able to get more than a sentence out...
就泣不成声 without disappearing into a puddle of tears.
如同所有真实的爱情故事 Like all real love stories...
这段故事会随我们一同逝去 ours will die with us.
这是自然之理 As it should.
其实 我很希望 You know, I'd kind of
他能够为我致悼词 hoped that he would be the one eulogizing me.
因为真的再也没有别人 Because there's really no one else...
是的 没有 呃 Yeah, no. Um...
我不会告诉你们我们的爱情故事 I'm not gonna talk about our love story,
我说不下去 because I can't.
相反 我要来和你们谈谈数学 So, instead, I'm gonna talk about math.
我虽然不是数学家 但我知道这件事 I am not a mathematician, but I do know this.
在0和1之间有数不清的数字 There are infinite numbers between zero and one.
有0.1 有0.12 有0.112 There's point-one, point-one-two, and point-one-one-two, and...
和其它 无尽的数字 and an infinite collection of others.
当然 在0和2之间 Of course, there is a bigger infinite
还有更多的数不清的数字 set of numbers between zero and two...
0和100万之间也是一样 or between zero and a million.
有些无穷大就是会超过别的无穷大 Some infinities are simply bigger than other infinities.
我们曾喜爱的一位作家这样教过我们 A writer that we used to like taught us that.
我想要得到的数字 比我能得到的数字更多 You know, I want more numbers...than I'm likely to get.
天呐 And, God...
我希望Augustus Waters do I want more days for Augustus Waters
能活得更久 than what he got.
但是 Gus But, Gus...
我的爱人 my love...
虽然我们只能拥有那么一点点的无尽岁月 I cannot tell you how thankful I am...
我还是很感恩 for our little infinity.
等一会 Hold on.
在有限的时间里 You gave me a forever...
你带给了我永恒 within the numbered days.
对于这点 And for that, I am...
我永远都会感谢你 I am eternally grateful.
我好爱你 I love you so much.
我也爱你 I love you, too.
Augustus Waters 8天后死于重症监护室 Augustus Waters died eight days later in the ICU.
他体内的癌细胞 When the cancer, which was made of him...
停止了同样是他身体一部分的心跳 stopped his heart, which was also made of him.
我无法忍受 It was unbearable.
所有的一切都无法忍受 The whole thing.
每一秒都上一秒更糟 Every second, worse than the last.
急诊室的医生一开始会要求你 One of the first things they ask you in the ER...
用1到10表示自己的疼痛 is to rate your pain on a scale from one to ten.
这问题我被问过上百遍 I've been asked this question hundreds of times...
我还记得有一次 and I remember once...
我喘不上气 when I couldn't catch my breath
胸腔就像是着火了一样 and it felt like my chest was on fire...
那时护士让我评价自己的疼痛感 the nurse asked me to rate the pain.
尽管我说不出话 Though I couldn't speak,
我还是竖起了9根手指 I held up nine fingers.
后来 当我开始觉得好点了 Later, when I started feeling better...
护士进来对我说 我是一名斗士 the nurse came in and she called me a fighter.
"你知道我为什么这么说吗" 她说 "You know how I know?" She said.
"你把10级的疼痛叫做9级" "You called a ten a nine."
但是那不是事实 But that wasn't the truth.
我并不是因为勇敢才竖了9根手指 I didn't call it a nine because I was brave.
我是留着10来应付最糟糕的情况 The reason I called it a nine was because I was saving my ten.
这就是了 And this was it.
这是最难熬最恐怖的10级疼痛 This was the great and terrible ten.
"当你与我同在 我不会惧怕恶魔" "I will fear no evil, for You are with me..."
出自<圣经>旧约诗篇第二十三篇
"你的杖和你的竿 为我带来安慰" "Your rod and your staff, they comfort me."
"在我敌人面前 你为我摆设宴席" "You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies."
"你用油膏为我按摩 我福杯满溢" "You anoint my head with oil. My cup overflows."
"慈惠恩爱" "Surely, goodness and love"
"必会伴我一生一世" "will follow me all the days of my life..."
"我且要住在耶和华的殿中" "And I will dwell in the house of the Lord...
"直到永远" "Forever."
Augustus Waters与癌症抗争很多年 Augustus Waters fought hard for many years.
他的表现很勇敢 His battle was a courageous one,
他的力量 and his strength...
一堆废话 对吗 孩子 What a load of shit, huh, kid?
能鼓舞我们所有的人 was a source of inspiration for each and every one of us.
让我们祈祷吧 Let us pray.
我们感谢主 赐予Augustus Waters生命 We thank You, Lord, for the life of Augustus Waters...
我们现在得假装祈祷 We need to fake-pray now.
感谢您赐予他力量与勇气 ...for his strength and his courage.
主啊 我们请求您今天能与我们同在 Lord, we ask that you be with us today,
请求您能为他的朋友和家人带来慰藉 that you be close, that You comfort his friends and family.
感谢您的降临 主啊 Thank You for Your presence, Lord.
我们以耶稣之名祷告 All this we pray in Jesus' name.
阿门 Amen.
现在 Now,
我们有请Gus的一位特别的朋友 we are going to hear from Gus' special friend...
Hazel Lancaster Hazel Lancaster.
虽然这不重要 但是我是他的女朋友 Not that it really matters, but I was his girlfriend.
在Gus的家里 有一句美丽的格言 There's a beautiful quote in Gus' home that reads...
"不经历风雨 怎能见彩虹" "If you want the rainbow, you have to deal with the rain."
即使在他生命最后的时光里 Even in his last few days...
呃 Um...
我说的东西连我自己都不相信 I didn't believe a word.
他还是能时常露出笑容 He was always able to crack a smile.
不过没关系 But that's okay.
我知道这样做是正确的 I knew this was the right thing to do.
我觉得 葬礼并不是为死者准备的 Funerals, I'd decided, are not for the dead.
而是为生者准备的 They're for the living.
嘿 想让我陪陪你吗 Hey, want some company?
不用了 我很好 No, I'm okay.
我就自己开会儿车 I'm just gonna drive for a bit by myself.
爱你 Love you.
你的致词很动人 You spoke beautifully.
待会儿见 注意安全 I'll see you soon. Drive safe.
好的 Okay.
我能上车吗 May I?
一切细胞来源于细胞 Omnis cellula e cellula.
Waters和我在他最后的几天里 Your boy Waters and I corresponded quite a bit
一直都保持联系 in his last days.
哦 是吗 你现在看你的粉丝信了吗 Oh. So, you read your fan mail now?
我并不觉得他是名粉丝 I wouldn't exactly call him a fan.
他痛恨我 He detested me.
但是他执意要我参加他的葬礼 But he was quite insistent I attend his funeral...
让我告诉你Anna和她的妈妈的后续 and tell you what became of Anna and her mother...
所以我就来了 so here I am.
这就是你要的答案 And that's your answer,
一切细胞来源于细胞 "Omnis cellula e cellula."
生活来源于生活 "Life comes from life."
我现在真的没心情听 I'm really not in the mood.
你不想听听解释吗 You don't want an explanation?
不 我不想 No, I don't.
不过 谢谢你 Thank you, though.
祝你愉快 Have a great life.
你让我想起了她 You remind me of her.
我让很多人想起了很多人 I remind a lot of people of a lot of people.
我的女儿当时8岁 My daughter was eight.
她勇敢地抗争了很长一段时间 And she suffered beautifully for so long.
她也得了白血病吗 像Anna一样 She had leukemia like Anna?
和Anna一样 Just like Anna.
我很抱歉 I'm very sorry for your loss.
我也很抱歉 也很抱歉毁了你的旅行 And I'm sorry for yours. And sorry for ruining your trip.
你没有毁掉我的旅行 You didn't ruin our trip.
我们度过了很美好的时光 We had an amazing trip.
你知道电车难题吗 Are you familiar with the Trolley Problem?
疯子将五人绑在一条有失控电车疾驰而来的铁轨上 一人绑在另一条上
是伦理学领域中一个思想试验 There's a thought experiment in the field of ethics...
你控制的拉杆能改变电车运行的轨道 你会选择救五个人还是一个人
就叫做电车难题 known as the Trolley Problem.
该试验批判了"功利原则" 即道德选择基于为最多的人提供最大的利益
Philippa Foot是一名英国的哲学家 Philippa Foot was an English philosopher...
也提出了现实生活中不存在完全的道德行为
哦 天呐 Oh, my God.
Hazel 我在试着给你解释 Hazel, I'm trying to explain something to you.
我在试着告诉你你想知道的 I'm trying to give you what you wanted.
不 你不是 No, you're not!
你是个醉鬼 你是个失败者 You are a drunk, and you're a failure...
我希望你马上下车 and I need you to get out of my car right now...
让我回家 一个人怀念他 so that I can go home, and be by myself and grieve!
你会想看看这个的 You'll want to read this.
我现在不想看任何东西 I don't want to read anything.
你快点下车好吗 Can you just get out of my car?
快下车 Please get out of my car!
好吧 Fine.
Bridy
我能进来吗 Can I come in?
对不起 I'm so, so sorry.
没事 Yeah.
这其实也是一次荣幸 不是吗 It was a privilege, though, wasn't it?
能够爱上他 To love him?
让你体会一遍我和你妈妈的感受 Gives you an idea how we feel about you.
Hazel Hazel?
有个朋友想见你 There's a friend here to see you.
你觉得他死的时候痛苦吗 Do you know if it hurt or whatever?
他当时应该挣扎了很久 想要呼吸 Apparently he was struggling for breath for a long time...
但是最终 他丧失了意识 and then eventually he just went unconscious.
这种感觉一点都不好 It wasn't great or anything.
死亡很糟糕 Dying sucks.
Gus真的很爱你 你知道吗 Gus really loved you, you know?
我知道 I know.
他一刻都停不下来 He wouldn't shut up about it.
是啊 Yeah.
太烦了 It was annoying.
他一直在说你 He talked about you so much.
我一点都不觉得烦 I didn't find it that annoying.
我知道 我知道你不觉得 I know. I know you didn't.
你拿到了你的作家朋友给你的信吗 Did you get that letter from your author friend?
呃 他才不是我的朋友 Ew. He's not my friend.
你怎么知道这件事 How do you know about that?
我在墓地跟他聊了会儿 Well, I was talking to him at the cemetery...
他说他来就是要给你那封信 and he said he came all this way to give that letter to you.
我已经不感兴趣了 Yeah, well, I'm over it.
我不想再读 I have no interest in
那个混蛋写的任何东西了 reading another word of that asshole's again.
不 不是他写的 No, he didn't write it.
是Gus写的 Gus wrote it.
什么 What?
显然 Gus写了点东西 Apparently Gus wrote something down
寄给了Van Houten and then sent it to Van Houten.
天呐 Oh, my God.
M83
Van Houten先生 Mr. Van Houten,
我是一个好人 但是是个糟糕的作家 I'm a good person, but a shitty writer.
你是个糟糕的人 但是是个好作家 You're a shitty person, but a good writer.
我觉得我们搭档起来应该不错 I think we'd make a good team.
我不想请你帮任何忙 I don't want to ask you for any favors...
但是如果你有时间的话 but if you have the time,
不过就我来看 你有很多 and from what I saw, you have plenty...
请帮我修改这篇东西 please fix this for me.
这是给Hazel的悼词 It's a eulogy for Hazel.
她让我写一篇 我尽全力写了 She asked me to write one, and I'm trying.
我只是 想要再借用点天分 I just... I could use a little flair.
事实是 我们都是想要被铭记 See, the thing is, we all want to be remembered.
但是Hazel不一样 But Hazel's different.
Hazel很清楚事实 Hazel knows the truth.
她不想要百万个追求者 她只要一个 She didn't want a million admirers. She just wanted one.
她得到了那一个 And she got it.
也许她不博爱 但是她爱得深沉 Maybe she wasn't loved widely, but she was loved deeply.
难道这不比大多数人得到的都要多吗 And isn't that more than most of us get?
当Hazel病重的时候 我知道我快死了 When Hazel was sick, I knew I was dying...
但是我当时不想说 but I didn't want to say so.
她在重症监护室的时候 She was in the ICU,
我偷偷溜了进去 呆了10分钟 and I snuck in for 10 minutes...
在被发现之前 我一直坐在她旁边 and I sat with her, before I got caught.
她的眼睛紧闭着 皮肤苍白 Her eyes were closed. Her skin, pale.
但是她的手还是和原来一样 But her hands were still her hands.
依旧那么温暖 然后她的指甲 Still warm, and her nails
涂着深蓝黑色的指甲油 were painted this dark blue-black color...
我就这么握着她的手 and I just held them.
强迫自己想象没有她的世界会是怎样 And I willed myself to imagine a world without us...
那会是一个多么没有意义的世界 and what a worthless world that would be.
她太美了 She's so beautiful.
我能就这么一直看着她 永远不厌倦 You don't get tired of looking at her.
你永远不必担心她是不是比你聪明 You never worry if she's smarter than you...
因为她就是如此 because you know she is.
她很幽默 也从不刻薄 She's funny without ever being mean.
我爱他 I love her.
天呐 我好爱她 God, I love her.
爱上她是我的福气 Van Houten I'm so lucky to love her, Van Houten.
在这世上 你不能选择是否会受伤 You don't get to choose if you get hurt in this world...
但是 你可以选择让谁来伤害你 but you do have a say in who hurts you.
我喜欢我的选择 And I like my choices.
我希望她也是 I hope she likes hers.
你说呢 Hazel Grace Okay, Hazel Grace?
是的 Okay.
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